Dont bother reading this

[madnis]

i just have to vent

I hate how things change so fast,
and nothing will ever be the same again.

eight days left. its crazy.
im excited but im afraid im overlooking things,
which knowing me, I probly am.

It's good to get out, and away..
but I've had a good time overall
and I've made some amazing friends
I just hope it stays that way.

I hope things only get better, and dont just continue getting harder.

Today made me realize, I'm probably a terrible friends.
I had you as my best friends for years, we did everything together.
we grew up together, we knew everything about eachother.
then in a matter of time, shit happend, and we let things slide
now i never see you out of school, and i let you get treated like shit
and i of all people know you dont deserve that at all.
i really never thought it would get that bad between us, and as time passed
we pretended nothing ever happend, we pushed it all away. and we still act like
nothing has changed when we talk, but in the back of our minds, we both know.
I just cant believe time passed so fast. i want to go back and fix it.
and i do love you. and i dont want you to like like that, but i tried,
and i really dont think there is anything i can do. its all you.
you have to realize you are better than that. ugh

and kellie, you better never do that to me.
but i know you wouldnt. :)