here and now
So, where I live now I have met people that I am so comfortable with. If I had met them years ago, I probably would be more ahead in the whole game of being well balanced.
More self assured and confident.
If I had met them when Aizee got ill, I would have been less of a basket case.
Maybe I meet them now so I appreciate them more?
In some ways I feel more versed in how life can be. Since I have lived much more than many people. The more I meet people, the more I live and experience...meet people and learn from them, the more I see the world.
I always try to keep an open mind. I love to meet people. To talk to them. To know them.
To connect. Because everyone has a life. That is one reason I talk about my drama. So to know where I am coming from. To share. And to hear about other peoples. That way there is a connection.
Then there are those I meet that I am a bit in awe of. Take a friend I have here. She has never left here. Ever. She was born and raised here, and still lives in the house she was raised. It is a HUGE house. Former Mayors house that someone in her family purchased. Since the house is Gigantic, it was split into a two family plus an apartment.
her parents live in the other half. However, somehow she is unflapable. She is so even.
She is a lot like Debbie. Must be the temperment. I do not know.
I guess despite whatever I encounter, I need a grounding point. I have had too much shit happen to me as of late. None of which I have shared with too many people.
And not those who are in certain situations. Situations that are stressful enough. Without my crap added to it. But those you see every day at the bus stop, or exchange kids and play dates every day, you can't hide it from.
I finally belong in real time. FOR ME. Not for the wealth I was born into. Not for status, for popularity, or lack of, or any of it. FOR ME!
Real life.
About Fucking TIME!
Just though, as it is in internet circumstances, I still suck at knowing how to be grateful without sounding soppy about it.
Or over doing it.
Anywho, Aizee is having surgery. She will be fine. I guess I am burnt out on Doctors and hospitals. All of it. I know she is too. I hope this will be the road to clear sailing from now on!!!!
Thank-you TOO to all of my friends out there in the cyber world.
You were first in acceptance of me and my looniness! :)
More self assured and confident.
If I had met them when Aizee got ill, I would have been less of a basket case.
Maybe I meet them now so I appreciate them more?
In some ways I feel more versed in how life can be. Since I have lived much more than many people. The more I meet people, the more I live and experience...meet people and learn from them, the more I see the world.
I always try to keep an open mind. I love to meet people. To talk to them. To know them.
To connect. Because everyone has a life. That is one reason I talk about my drama. So to know where I am coming from. To share. And to hear about other peoples. That way there is a connection.
Then there are those I meet that I am a bit in awe of. Take a friend I have here. She has never left here. Ever. She was born and raised here, and still lives in the house she was raised. It is a HUGE house. Former Mayors house that someone in her family purchased. Since the house is Gigantic, it was split into a two family plus an apartment.
her parents live in the other half. However, somehow she is unflapable. She is so even.
She is a lot like Debbie. Must be the temperment. I do not know.
I guess despite whatever I encounter, I need a grounding point. I have had too much shit happen to me as of late. None of which I have shared with too many people.
And not those who are in certain situations. Situations that are stressful enough. Without my crap added to it. But those you see every day at the bus stop, or exchange kids and play dates every day, you can't hide it from.
I finally belong in real time. FOR ME. Not for the wealth I was born into. Not for status, for popularity, or lack of, or any of it. FOR ME!
Real life.
About Fucking TIME!
Just though, as it is in internet circumstances, I still suck at knowing how to be grateful without sounding soppy about it.
Or over doing it.
Anywho, Aizee is having surgery. She will be fine. I guess I am burnt out on Doctors and hospitals. All of it. I know she is too. I hope this will be the road to clear sailing from now on!!!!
Thank-you TOO to all of my friends out there in the cyber world.
You were first in acceptance of me and my looniness! :)