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I think I'm going to skip practice tonight. I was really sad to miss scrimmaging last week (stuff came up at work) and missing two weeks in a row is not what I was hoping for. But I'm leaning towards it anyway. For a couple of reasons:
Deadline is looming at work, and while I probably could leave and make it, I don't want to rush this.
My quads are sore from doing lunges at monday's abortive practice. They're locking up on me when I walk; I look like an old person. I'm guessing I could skate - squatting seems to work better (though no more comfortably) than walking. I don't think I could do it well though, and I don't think I want to play badly, especially in the scrimmage before the first home bout. The teams are all amping up to compete and trying to nail down strategies and teamwork. I don't want to be all dragging and spazzing in their prep-time.
I took a week off, see. A whole week, all the way off: no practice and no workouts. I haven't done that since January. I didn't mean to take a week off, but a Saturday off at the boy's request for brunch and jewelry shopping was followed by a Monday to deal with the aftermath of being robbed, a Wednesday night spent working late, and a Thursday on which the practice space was closed for fire code violation (!) and that, friends, is a derby-less week. It's a bad idea, if I want to go back, and I won't be doing it again. (I'm now reminding myself I went to open skate last thursday, I feel like that barely even counts.)
I want to re-allign my expectations. I am not trying to play in the June bout. I could theoretically get there; it's possible. But I don't want to be shooting for that; I want to make it for July. A lot of the girls in this are just so hardcore and so driven, I want to be like that. I envy it sometimes, but I don't think it's for me. I was talking about this before the last orange assessment, and I lost it again once I got scrimmaging. I want to do this thing and I want to be good at it, but I don't want it to take over my life. I don't want to be flailing in any sense, and I think that means going a little slower. So I'm going to blow off the June 3 assessment - I'll take it, but I'm not preparing. I've got my sights set on July.
As for tonight I think a short outdoor skate and some crunches will suffice. Maybe a push up or few. Tomorrow I'll go to open skate and work on form and strength. This weekend I will work one shift at the bout and watch the rest. Next week I'll go back to practice, hopefully in the right shape.
Deadline is looming at work, and while I probably could leave and make it, I don't want to rush this.
My quads are sore from doing lunges at monday's abortive practice. They're locking up on me when I walk; I look like an old person. I'm guessing I could skate - squatting seems to work better (though no more comfortably) than walking. I don't think I could do it well though, and I don't think I want to play badly, especially in the scrimmage before the first home bout. The teams are all amping up to compete and trying to nail down strategies and teamwork. I don't want to be all dragging and spazzing in their prep-time.
I took a week off, see. A whole week, all the way off: no practice and no workouts. I haven't done that since January. I didn't mean to take a week off, but a Saturday off at the boy's request for brunch and jewelry shopping was followed by a Monday to deal with the aftermath of being robbed, a Wednesday night spent working late, and a Thursday on which the practice space was closed for fire code violation (!) and that, friends, is a derby-less week. It's a bad idea, if I want to go back, and I won't be doing it again. (I'm now reminding myself I went to open skate last thursday, I feel like that barely even counts.)
I want to re-allign my expectations. I am not trying to play in the June bout. I could theoretically get there; it's possible. But I don't want to be shooting for that; I want to make it for July. A lot of the girls in this are just so hardcore and so driven, I want to be like that. I envy it sometimes, but I don't think it's for me. I was talking about this before the last orange assessment, and I lost it again once I got scrimmaging. I want to do this thing and I want to be good at it, but I don't want it to take over my life. I don't want to be flailing in any sense, and I think that means going a little slower. So I'm going to blow off the June 3 assessment - I'll take it, but I'm not preparing. I've got my sights set on July.
As for tonight I think a short outdoor skate and some crunches will suffice. Maybe a push up or few. Tomorrow I'll go to open skate and work on form and strength. This weekend I will work one shift at the bout and watch the rest. Next week I'll go back to practice, hopefully in the right shape.