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Still not recovered, yesterday, from relapse from last mowing, etc., but had to push myself to mow again. At least it is over with. Managed to string together a number of blocks of sleep so that I almost got a regular night's sleep last night. Woke up tired, though. Had several interesting dreams, with a lot of celebrities, lol. Started off with one where Matthew McConaughey wanted to bugger me. Get off my back! As if I don't have enough of this crap in my normal life. He was the actual Matthew McConaughey, but also the character in, "Dazed And Confused." I can't remember every celebrity, but it was like there was one for each dream or dream-segment...
I was trying to give a speech, and putting together some really strong thoughts/words. "I like the way your mind works," said Donald Trump. But the transcript of the speech was muddled, meant to be transcribed properly later. This lead to the worry that my speech was incomplete. And then there was a segment of me running about, trying to prepare the speech. In a department store where a romantic comedy was going on. I ran into some renowned English star, somewhere between Julie Andrews and Emma Thompson or someone I can't put my finger on. She said she would help and didn't, until I pressed her. If I remember more, I'll add it later.
I am sorry to see another LJ friend has, after popping in, permanently popped out. Deleted her journal. I don't know why this happens. I suspect the intensity and/or profusion of my own journal might not help, in that it might scare away the less committed, or more insecure or enthused. It saddens me. All I can say is that LJ is my main occupation. Other people succeed by being in school, having jobs, having kids, having other expert pursuits, other concerns. I have a dog, pain, and this.
It annoys me when people try to compare themselves to what I do here. I go out of my way to assert that everyone is special/important. But, still, a number of people just fall away like flies onto the window sill. Through the years I have been on LJ, there have been countless people who have come and gone, and it's just stupid.
Of course, it is not always me, lol! But, this girl seemed too interested in me - as some do when they start off - and was one of those all-I-know-is-that-Trump-is-all-evil females. So, once again, I didn't fit the profile, and so that was that. I feel sorry for people who keep thinking that reality is going to conform to their own hopes or projections. It is sad. These people go in and out of depression, and also mania. Over, and over. I think many of them didn't have strong or loving fathers. Or some of them are looking and waiting for their strong/loving fathers in others.
It's like they are adrift for their entire lives, always expecting someone to save them, but only someone out of a story book.
Someone fairly recently became the Spanish Inquisition, trying to see to it that I fit her mould, until, once again, failure. Crash and burn. Goodbye forever. Well, how about wait for the big sleep for that kind of thinking. Until then, try to play a little wider with your life. Me so sorry. But no one is here to spoon feed anyone.
Ask yourself how much of your search might rather be a less conscious obsession to fail or to harm.
Time to deal with dog again...
I was trying to give a speech, and putting together some really strong thoughts/words. "I like the way your mind works," said Donald Trump. But the transcript of the speech was muddled, meant to be transcribed properly later. This lead to the worry that my speech was incomplete. And then there was a segment of me running about, trying to prepare the speech. In a department store where a romantic comedy was going on. I ran into some renowned English star, somewhere between Julie Andrews and Emma Thompson or someone I can't put my finger on. She said she would help and didn't, until I pressed her. If I remember more, I'll add it later.
I am sorry to see another LJ friend has, after popping in, permanently popped out. Deleted her journal. I don't know why this happens. I suspect the intensity and/or profusion of my own journal might not help, in that it might scare away the less committed, or more insecure or enthused. It saddens me. All I can say is that LJ is my main occupation. Other people succeed by being in school, having jobs, having kids, having other expert pursuits, other concerns. I have a dog, pain, and this.
It annoys me when people try to compare themselves to what I do here. I go out of my way to assert that everyone is special/important. But, still, a number of people just fall away like flies onto the window sill. Through the years I have been on LJ, there have been countless people who have come and gone, and it's just stupid.
Of course, it is not always me, lol! But, this girl seemed too interested in me - as some do when they start off - and was one of those all-I-know-is-that-Trump-is-all-evil females. So, once again, I didn't fit the profile, and so that was that. I feel sorry for people who keep thinking that reality is going to conform to their own hopes or projections. It is sad. These people go in and out of depression, and also mania. Over, and over. I think many of them didn't have strong or loving fathers. Or some of them are looking and waiting for their strong/loving fathers in others.
It's like they are adrift for their entire lives, always expecting someone to save them, but only someone out of a story book.
Someone fairly recently became the Spanish Inquisition, trying to see to it that I fit her mould, until, once again, failure. Crash and burn. Goodbye forever. Well, how about wait for the big sleep for that kind of thinking. Until then, try to play a little wider with your life. Me so sorry. But no one is here to spoon feed anyone.
Ask yourself how much of your search might rather be a less conscious obsession to fail or to harm.
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