I see two LJ friends have posted after being away, so I am loading my friends page, so I can read those posts. While that happens, I will mention a thought / hypothesis
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I guess Sirens was long but I don't remember that now, hmmm.
Well, OK:
1 - You know there is a difference in what you can internalise by watching the TV news vs. by listening to it on the radio? I can look at words, and often figure out the technical sense of things - (like looking at a TV) - (that is, when I am able to read). But internalising meaning and feelings and more subtle things (radio) is usually impaired. I can range from inability to read, to a kind of dyslexic input, to a kind of ADD, to a difficulty staying focused of connecting sentences, to being normal - the olde moi.
2 - Too tired.
3 - Bright screens!
4 - TIME. I have so little time to do anything I want or need to do, so focusing on a novel while I could be writing - even writing a novel - is something I just don't do. I guess I have developed a learnt aversion to fiction.
5 - Much of my life after getting CFS has been - uh what's the word - tragedy! A lot of bad stuff has happened to me. I could write a library. So, I guess I have been jaded or disappointed or just not that inclined to believe that there could be anything relevant for me in fiction.
Some reasons this is not so much a non-fiction problem: I got really into reality - reading medical journals, etc. And, my brain has changed. The brain changes. I guess the main answer is that nonfiction is more surface than fiction, requiring less internalisation. I guess the input - which is already a challenge - is less challenging than that of fiction. Humour, though, is a good bridge.
I guess Sirens was long but I don't remember that now, hmmm.
Well, OK:
1 - You know there is a difference in what you can internalise by watching the TV news vs. by listening to it on the radio? I can look at words, and often figure out the technical sense of things - (like looking at a TV) - (that is, when I am able to read). But internalising meaning and feelings and more subtle things (radio) is usually impaired. I can range from inability to read, to a kind of dyslexic input, to a kind of ADD, to a difficulty staying focused of connecting sentences, to being normal - the olde moi.
2 - Too tired.
3 - Bright screens!
4 - TIME. I have so little time to do anything I want or need to do, so focusing on a novel while I could be writing - even writing a novel - is something I just don't do. I guess I have developed a learnt aversion to fiction.
5 - Much of my life after getting CFS has been - uh what's the word - tragedy! A lot of bad stuff has happened to me. I could write a library. So, I guess I have been jaded or disappointed or just not that inclined to believe that there could be anything relevant for me in fiction.
Some reasons this is not so much a non-fiction problem: I got really into reality - reading medical journals, etc. And, my brain has changed. The brain changes. I guess the main answer is that nonfiction is more surface than fiction, requiring less internalisation. I guess the input - which is already a challenge - is less challenging than that of fiction. Humour, though, is a good bridge.
OK - so there ya go!
:)
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