I was thinking about you the whole time!
I owe it to you, my faithful readers, who have always been so supportive, to be honest with you. (Oh, and those of you who read my LJ for totally different, non-fanfic-related reasons...if, indeed, there is anyone who fits that description...should feel free to totally skip this entry.)
I can't take this life of filth and deceit any longer. I can't sleep, I can't eat. I toss and turn, wondering how I'll break the news to you, wondering if you'll ever forgive me. Maybe I shouldn't tell you, I've thought. Maybe I'd only be doing it to satisfy my own guilt.
But no...I just can't live this double life anymore. I have to tell you the truth, no matter how tawdry and sleazy it makes me feel.
I've been unfaithful to you. I've been...writing in another fandom.
Now, before I go on, let me reassure you that THIS DOES NOT IN ANY WAY, SHAPE OR FORM MEAN THAT I'M NOT GOING TO WRITE ON HWTF ANY MORE. I worked on it last night, in fact. I'm still slow as ever, but Chapter 13 is coming along, and the end is in sight. So it WILL happen, and I WILL finish it, and I'm anxious to move on to the next story in the series.
So I still love you. Okay? I'm just having...an affair with another fandom.
I've been writing a "Brokeback Mountain" story.
Okay, before you laugh at me, let me just say that there is a lot of fic being written in this fandom. Some of it is pretty good. Some of it...well, not so much. I never planned this. You all know the movie's been getting to me. And then came the bunnies, as they do. I ignored them for awhile, but I was weak, and the bunnies, they were strong. Lately I'd been feeling like all the writing I was doing, be it HWTF or Third, was like pulling teeth. But when I started writing this, it just came. It was like that flush of new romance, and it was exhilarating. When I tell you I've put out four chapters in three days (pretty short chapters, but totalling about 40 Word pages) you'll get what I mean. I thought I'd have trouble with the dialects...but I didn't. It was like slipping into something I'd lived in a past life but forgotten.
Okay, now I'm getting all weird about it. Suffice it to say that I'm feeling excited to be writing, and that's a good thing for me. It'll spill over into my other writing enterprises. So I hope you can all be happy for me, and believe that I have not abandoned you!
Actually, it's kind of a miracle that this is the first time this has happened. I've been writing nothing but HP for six years, and I've never been so exclusive before.
Now. If you would like to read this illicit work I've been doing, I'd love it. Please note that I really don't think you should read it unless you've seen the movie. It's an AU (I wanted to explore an alternate outcome for the story, as many other writers are doing), but it still depends heavily on the film/story canon.
I'm posting it on wranglers, one of the BBM communities. This link goes to chapter 4, but there are links up front to the previous three chapters.
Human Interest, Chapters 1-4
*sob* Forgive me.
I can't take this life of filth and deceit any longer. I can't sleep, I can't eat. I toss and turn, wondering how I'll break the news to you, wondering if you'll ever forgive me. Maybe I shouldn't tell you, I've thought. Maybe I'd only be doing it to satisfy my own guilt.
But no...I just can't live this double life anymore. I have to tell you the truth, no matter how tawdry and sleazy it makes me feel.
I've been unfaithful to you. I've been...writing in another fandom.
Now, before I go on, let me reassure you that THIS DOES NOT IN ANY WAY, SHAPE OR FORM MEAN THAT I'M NOT GOING TO WRITE ON HWTF ANY MORE. I worked on it last night, in fact. I'm still slow as ever, but Chapter 13 is coming along, and the end is in sight. So it WILL happen, and I WILL finish it, and I'm anxious to move on to the next story in the series.
So I still love you. Okay? I'm just having...an affair with another fandom.
I've been writing a "Brokeback Mountain" story.
Okay, before you laugh at me, let me just say that there is a lot of fic being written in this fandom. Some of it is pretty good. Some of it...well, not so much. I never planned this. You all know the movie's been getting to me. And then came the bunnies, as they do. I ignored them for awhile, but I was weak, and the bunnies, they were strong. Lately I'd been feeling like all the writing I was doing, be it HWTF or Third, was like pulling teeth. But when I started writing this, it just came. It was like that flush of new romance, and it was exhilarating. When I tell you I've put out four chapters in three days (pretty short chapters, but totalling about 40 Word pages) you'll get what I mean. I thought I'd have trouble with the dialects...but I didn't. It was like slipping into something I'd lived in a past life but forgotten.
Okay, now I'm getting all weird about it. Suffice it to say that I'm feeling excited to be writing, and that's a good thing for me. It'll spill over into my other writing enterprises. So I hope you can all be happy for me, and believe that I have not abandoned you!
Actually, it's kind of a miracle that this is the first time this has happened. I've been writing nothing but HP for six years, and I've never been so exclusive before.
Now. If you would like to read this illicit work I've been doing, I'd love it. Please note that I really don't think you should read it unless you've seen the movie. It's an AU (I wanted to explore an alternate outcome for the story, as many other writers are doing), but it still depends heavily on the film/story canon.
I'm posting it on wranglers, one of the BBM communities. This link goes to chapter 4, but there are links up front to the previous three chapters.
Human Interest, Chapters 1-4
*sob* Forgive me.