Research Notes #7
hmph. I, of all people, have somehow managed to pick up a student. A pupil, perhaps. I must admit, my initial thoughts on the matter where to gain leverage over the Shell, but it seems the situation has changed. This girl, Kairi, laps up all the knowledge i give her, then comes back at me with needle-pointed logic as to why things are so, offering personal anecdotes and drawing on her...somewhat limited...life experience to delve further into the heart of matters. Where i to make a prediction, i would say that she'll will be a very powerful mage one day...perhaps as powerful as I.
There are obsticals to that, of course. No, no i must not let her gain power if she is only going to use it to further the cause of Light. I must mar her heart...mar heart to twist her mind. I can only imagine the pain that will cause the Shell. She claims to be from some backwater world...i must get my hands on a star chart so we may find her homeworld: there might be others who could be as strong as she. If i could get my hands on such a place...the possibilities multiply before mine very eyes!
She grasps the concepts and precepts of magic easily...it will only be a day or two more before i believe we can begin having...fun. =) damn it...i still hate that face. My dear Bishop, do you know how to make a more evil looking smile? I find i simply cannot find the correct keystroke.
All this fun with the girl, though, has kept me from my other work. That must be remidied. I am so, so very close to the keyhole; my nightly exertions to the shield and spells surrounding it are being quite fruitful. However, i have managed to spend more time on my own studies...
Research Notes #7: Darkheart, Lightheart, and Resistance
I can only reason that it is my Lord's doing. Why i still have my Heart that is. I cannot believe I have any Light left in my Heart...that would be foolish. No, I can only believe that my Lord Ansem displaced all the Light in my Heart, making it a thing of Darkness. But it didn't flee; I can only deduce that somehow, during the experiments when he infused me with Darkness, that he was able to trap my Heart within my body, refusing to let it leave my newly changed body.
Which explains my giddiness...my madness. It is a gift from my Lord that i thank him for, for it has kept me alive longer than anything else has. I can only marvel at his power to keep the HEart from leaving, and wonder how much of this, that i have thought of, he knew or suspected. I know I can never match his powers or his brilliance, but I can only try to follow up in his work: a task of which i am wholly unworthy. THough I must ponder: is madness a sign of an overabundance of Darkness in a Heart?
If my Heart is mostly, if not all, Darkness, then one can look at it's opposite in the world of men. Or rather, Women. The Princesses of Heart: they are the begins whom have no Darkness within their HEart, or at least have the least of any seven beigns in existance. However, I don't like the idea of a contest for the least amount of Darkness determining the creation of a Princess of Heart - it unnerves me. So i must believe that they are chosen, somehow, or that when born they have a natural resistance to the Darkness of existance. Darkness always tries to reclaim the space that Light has stolen from it.
Which of course explains all otehr creatures. Every creature has some varying degree of Darkness within their Hearts - a sort of natural resistance the Light has within the shell of a person against the Darkness. The greater the resistance, the greater the Light; the greater the Light, the so-called "better" a person is.
I wonder...do World's have varying resistan e to the Darkness? The greater the resistance, the longer it takes teh Heartless to consume, or rather, displace the Light? The less the resistance, the easier for the Heartless to go to that world? Or a "less hospitable" world has a lesser resistance to the Darkness, and the bad climate is simply evidance of this. A question to ponder, then, because I may never be able to find an exact answer.
Unless I destroy some worlds, of course.
note to self: copy out later to notes. Kairi should be here soon.