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I am so very sad.
No one will ever know how sad I am over Nik. He is sweetness and goodness and he loved me like nothing else. I just didn't love him as much as I needed to to stay with him. God. This feels so bad. When does this feel better? I'm the dumper, not the dumpee. I'm not supposed to hurt this bad.
Shit shit shit. I just want to go back to the way things were. When I was happy with Nik, not always just kind of bored and aggravated. I just want to die.
Not really die. I just feel terrible.
I want Nik back, but I don't think that I actually do. I think that I just feel so bad that I want to go back with him to try and make him happy. Which will never work if I'm unhappy.
Dammit. This hurts too bad.
No one will ever know how sad I am over Nik. He is sweetness and goodness and he loved me like nothing else. I just didn't love him as much as I needed to to stay with him. God. This feels so bad. When does this feel better? I'm the dumper, not the dumpee. I'm not supposed to hurt this bad.
Shit shit shit. I just want to go back to the way things were. When I was happy with Nik, not always just kind of bored and aggravated. I just want to die.
Not really die. I just feel terrible.
I want Nik back, but I don't think that I actually do. I think that I just feel so bad that I want to go back with him to try and make him happy. Which will never work if I'm unhappy.
Dammit. This hurts too bad.