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this weekend was so fucking fun.
i spent most of my time with jordan tina and alex.
i went to jordans house to chill with him before he left and e gave me most of his records. and some clothes and stuff. and then filled my ipod with so much shit i had asked for.
we rode the huge ford f150 to cumberland and jordan drove it all the way home and then to baltimore so we could chill with brittany and mike. i had a lot of fun there with them. i hope to go back soon.
last night was steven's birthday party. before much went down he drove the truck once again to his house. i cried silently on the way there and then when we were saying goodbye i lost it. everyones just like ohh yeah he's coming back no big deal. but i don't know i've just realized i'm done being in frederick. i need to go do somthing with my life. and i think hes gonna have so much fun with willy but i'm so sad cause i feel like i'm loosing a part of myself.
i'm just so lost. i'm gonna miss him so much.
then we go back to that party and someone decides to spend half their own party foolin around upstairs with some girl who is really weirding me out. then he comes down and makes me feel all weird and even more sad after i already had cried so much. he apologized for the last year and told me that it was him being passive agressive and he felt so shitty about it. i hope he wasnt just saying that cause he was drunk
i slept next to him and when i woke up i cried again.
yeah cry a lot lately.
i spent most of my time with jordan tina and alex.
i went to jordans house to chill with him before he left and e gave me most of his records. and some clothes and stuff. and then filled my ipod with so much shit i had asked for.
we rode the huge ford f150 to cumberland and jordan drove it all the way home and then to baltimore so we could chill with brittany and mike. i had a lot of fun there with them. i hope to go back soon.
last night was steven's birthday party. before much went down he drove the truck once again to his house. i cried silently on the way there and then when we were saying goodbye i lost it. everyones just like ohh yeah he's coming back no big deal. but i don't know i've just realized i'm done being in frederick. i need to go do somthing with my life. and i think hes gonna have so much fun with willy but i'm so sad cause i feel like i'm loosing a part of myself.
i'm just so lost. i'm gonna miss him so much.
then we go back to that party and someone decides to spend half their own party foolin around upstairs with some girl who is really weirding me out. then he comes down and makes me feel all weird and even more sad after i already had cried so much. he apologized for the last year and told me that it was him being passive agressive and he felt so shitty about it. i hope he wasnt just saying that cause he was drunk
i slept next to him and when i woke up i cried again.
yeah cry a lot lately.