see?? i came back to update!!
yeah, so things have been sort of hectic here. i pretty much forgot about LJ, mostly because there was nothing to write about. my life really isn't that exciting. well, it wasn't.
so here's the story: i had made an appointment with a gynecologist cuz i figured it was about damn time (it's been 10 years). so i went in yesterday afternoon, and told her why i was there (i won't go into the icky details). then i said that i had skipped last month's period and was concerned that my cycle was off again. so she gets me in that chair (ick) and i guess in sweden it's standard procedure to do what's called a vaginal ultrasound. i know what it is, but i'd never really heard of it being done. basically they have this ultrasound wand that gets poked into your nether regions and they can look around. it is as uncomfortable as it sounds, but it was really cool to watch on the monitor.
anyway, so she's poking around, and she says "hmm. maybe you're pregnant" to which i responded "you're kidding!". i'm guessing you all know what an ultrasound looks like, so just picture one that's all grainy gray but with a little black speck in it. she pointed to it and said "see that? *me nodding* if you weren't pregnant, that probably wouldn't be there." the little black speck was apparently my 6 week old shrimp/alien thing (look at a pic, you'll see what i mean LOL). anyway, so she has me get dressed and pee in a cup, then she tested. i remember standing there looking perplexed so she says "this here *points to purple stripe* is the control strip. and this here *points to rapidly growing second purple stripe* means it's positive." then she says "congrats" and i said "thanks. now what do i do?"
it's a shock. i mean, i know how it happens and i knew it was a possibility. but i'd pretty much resigned myself to never having one. i'm still getting used to the idea. i keep saying it out loud. "I'm pregnant." it's something i never thought i would hear myself say. a small part of me is still in doubt, like what if this is all a big hoax or something. i know it's not, but my brain works funny like that.
all in all, i'm thrilled and very excited. it's a big change and, i'll be honest, i'm terrified. i actually cried last night just before bed, but my husband (wonderful man, he) assured me that everything will be fine. he's taking it all in stride, like it's just another day. he's very adaptable like that.
anyway, today was a very long day, and i'm very tired, so i'm going to bed. i'll update again tomorrow (maybe -runs away-)
so here's the story: i had made an appointment with a gynecologist cuz i figured it was about damn time (it's been 10 years). so i went in yesterday afternoon, and told her why i was there (i won't go into the icky details). then i said that i had skipped last month's period and was concerned that my cycle was off again. so she gets me in that chair (ick) and i guess in sweden it's standard procedure to do what's called a vaginal ultrasound. i know what it is, but i'd never really heard of it being done. basically they have this ultrasound wand that gets poked into your nether regions and they can look around. it is as uncomfortable as it sounds, but it was really cool to watch on the monitor.
anyway, so she's poking around, and she says "hmm. maybe you're pregnant" to which i responded "you're kidding!". i'm guessing you all know what an ultrasound looks like, so just picture one that's all grainy gray but with a little black speck in it. she pointed to it and said "see that? *me nodding* if you weren't pregnant, that probably wouldn't be there." the little black speck was apparently my 6 week old shrimp/alien thing (look at a pic, you'll see what i mean LOL). anyway, so she has me get dressed and pee in a cup, then she tested. i remember standing there looking perplexed so she says "this here *points to purple stripe* is the control strip. and this here *points to rapidly growing second purple stripe* means it's positive." then she says "congrats" and i said "thanks. now what do i do?"
it's a shock. i mean, i know how it happens and i knew it was a possibility. but i'd pretty much resigned myself to never having one. i'm still getting used to the idea. i keep saying it out loud. "I'm pregnant." it's something i never thought i would hear myself say. a small part of me is still in doubt, like what if this is all a big hoax or something. i know it's not, but my brain works funny like that.
all in all, i'm thrilled and very excited. it's a big change and, i'll be honest, i'm terrified. i actually cried last night just before bed, but my husband (wonderful man, he) assured me that everything will be fine. he's taking it all in stride, like it's just another day. he's very adaptable like that.
anyway, today was a very long day, and i'm very tired, so i'm going to bed. i'll update again tomorrow (maybe -runs away-)