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[madies_slave]

i havent updated this journal, and did say i was surrendering it to the ages. but alas. im using it for poetry from now on. these lyrics are not mine, but touch me deeply everyday. i shouldnt live in the past, and try not to. in fact, im feeling for somone in my life, deeply. its wonderfull. These songs are not aobut that girl though, these are about yea.

Although it's warm outside
I feel cold inside my skin
I really could have used fair warning
Then maybe I'd survive this hell I'm in
This is easy
This is easier

If I could heal myself
Where would I begin?
I really wish I'd had a shoulder
I'd try and climb from this hole I'm in
This is easy
This is easier

Locked in all alone here
Fate is in my fingertips
There isn't anyone that can hold me here
Do you think this is courage?
Does this make me brave?
It's just a consequence of the easiest choice that I've made

This is easy
this is easier for me
Than to pretend that this will ever get easier for me

Locked in all alone here
Fate is in my fingertips
There isn't anyone that can hold me here
Do you think this is Selfish?
Does this make me crazed?
It's just a consequence of the easiest choice that I've made

This is easy
this is easier for me
Than to pretend that this will ever get
This will never get easy
I don't think so
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I am wearing this weight Again
It cuts like it did then
It's consuming all my thoughts
and swallowing me Again

And what you see is what's left of me
but I'm here
I didn't think I'd scare very easily
but I fear this thing

It is wearing me out and thin
Paralyzing me Again
It was vicious all the way here
I am barely alive

I wish you love
With anyone else but me
I wish you love with anyone

And all I can do I will do for you
If I'm here
I promise you I'll remember you
While I'm here

I wish you love Again
I am surrendering me
Surrendering mine