Fuck it all
I had a realization today. And I wasn't high. I realized just how tired I am. I'm very tired. I feel as though the small candle light of my life has nearly burned out. The flame inside of me feels so dim at any moment it feels as though it's going to burn out. I'm tired of trying to seek the approval of others. So what changes? How do I find out who I really am? I want to dig deep into my soul but I can't find the shovel. I want to break this glass heart of mine but I've lost the brick. I want to SHATTER! I want release! I want out! I'm drowing and don't know how to swim. I want to cry but I can't find the tears. I'm used up. Inside this glass heart the oxygen's run out. So what's left for me? I wonder if I'll even wake up tommorow. I know I will yet some part of me doesn't want to. I want to find that eternal slumber and rest for a thousand years. Maybe in a thousand years I'll find what I'm looking for.