+:.dolls.:+
mistula inspired me to post this...
i love mistula <3
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the doll of the name of lucifer
embraced by your arms, you watched over my sleeping face.
heigth: 39 cm, but really 165 cm.
my name is lucifer.
dressed in devil's clothes, your pleasing,
embraceable doll.
i've endured everything to be with you
to live, theres no other way. i endure it...
according to your wishes i continue on as a doll
so won't you love me even a little?
you took my cheek to your breast, everynight I counted your heartbeats.
i'm alive, notice me. yet, i can't speak to you.
i've been staring at you forever
but i, like a toy, can't open my heart to you.
I hid my pain and tears
just a doll to be held by you,
theres no other way. i endure it...
according to your wishes i've become an object.
somehow, please hold the real me too.
can i have you? can i not?
because to you i'm not a human, right?
ever since the day you decided I was your bisque doll,
blood won't flow from my wounds, and on sad days I can't cry.
do I, with a face like a mannequin, not have a heart?
ah, i might as well not have one at all
with this kind of pain.
and so, your established rules:
"don't talk, don't eat, don't move, don't even breath.
my cute lucifer.."
i understand. i'm your trifle plaything.
there's no other way, i love you.
according to your wishes, i've killed my own self
to become your object.
so, won't you please love the real me too?
since the day you threw me against the wall, my heart has been in pieces.
but as you see my broken heart, you feel bad.
wow, with just some glue you heal me
so won't you love me a little? your lucifer.
tonight as well, embraced by your arms, you silently watch over me.
heigth: 39 cm, but really 165 cm.
my name is lucifer.
to be held by my beloved, just for this i've become a doll.
foolish little lucifer.
..Lucifer to iu na no oningyou
goshuujinsama (anata) no ude ni dakarete shizuka ni negao mimamotta..
shinchou sanjuukyuu senchi. hontou wa hyakurokujuugo senchi.
boku no namae wa rushifaa.
anata no oki ni iri no akuma no isho o tsuketa daki ningyou sa.
are mo kore mo koraeru. kimi ni dakareru tame ni ikiteiru,
sore mo shikata nai, gaman suru.
anata no onozomidoori seiakuneko (ningyou) no furitsuzukeru,
sore de sukoshi demo aishite kureru nara.
anata no ude ni hohoyose yodoushi kodou kazoeta
ikiteru boku ni kitzuite. demo, koe ni wa dekinai.
ne boku wa itsumo itsumo anata o mitsumetsuzuketeta.
demo gunga (omocha) no boku ni wa uchiakerarenai.
itami mo namida mo kakushita. kimi dakareru tame no ningyou
sore mo shikata nai, gaman suru.
anata no nozomidoori no busshitsu (mono) ni, boku wa naru kara. dou ka,
hontou no boku mo dakishimete kudasai.
ryakudatsu shitai (te ni ire) toka dekinai toka, sorette
boku ga anata ni totta ningen ja nai kara nan da ne?
kimi ga boku o bisukudooru to ninshiki shita (kime) hi kara,
kizuguchi kara wa chi wa nagarezu, kanashii hi mo namida mo denai.
ningyou (manekin) mitai no kao shita boku ni kokor wa nai to? aa,
isso nakunatte shimaeba ii,
konna ni tsurai nara.
soshite kimi no sadameta ruuru,
"shaberanaide, tabenaide, ugokenaide, iki mo shicha dame da yo
kawaii rushifaa."
wakatteirusa. anata ni moteasobareru (moteaso) tame no boku da.
sore mo, shikata nai, aishiteru.
anata no nozomidoori no buttai (mono) ni, boku wa jibun o korosu (naru) kara,
dou ka, hontou no boku mo hitsuyou toshite (ai) kudasai.
kimi ga kabe ni nagetsuketa hi kara mune wa hibi ga itta (kudake) mama. demo,
boku no kowareta shinzou (haato) ni kimi wa kokoro o itame
boku no mune o setchakuzai de iyasou nante, ne,
sukoshi wa aishitekureteru no? kimi no rushifaa o.
anata no ude ni dakarete shizuka mimamoru, konya mo.
shinchou sanjuukyuu senchi, hontou wa hyakurokujuugo senchi.
boku no namae wa rushifaa.
itoshii anata ni dakareru, sore dake no tame ni ningyou ni natta
oroka na lucifer (akuma) sa.