I think I'm talking about depth.

[madgeisasellout]

I'm still not to a point where I feel like it exists to actually be close to someone as opposed to just pretending. I know that's because somewhere I actually still believe the only legitimate thing is a soulmate and that a soulmate exists, and there isn't another side for me to balance that out with.

experience. that's all I got so far.

i.e. pretending?

experience-pretending.real-fake

ugh. don't even read this.