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So for a couple days now I have been entertaining the idea of lecturing for Software Architecture. The idea really freaks me out and I'm 100% nervous about standing in front of 50 students talking about anything. They each pay like $2000 to take the course so I would be responsible for $100,000 worth of education each month. Thats .. holy shit it's
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There is no reason for you to not take this job. Except for letting your nervousness get the best of you. Not only that, I think you are perfect for that class. People are right before final project, so they arent going to ask you specific shit like "how do i write a l33t shader?" they are going to ask you about design shit for their engines. How do you answer that? You ask them what they need their engine to do, a few more questions and they will answer it themselves. You do this better then anyone.
I will be fucking pissed if i see you puss out here man. I say puss out because i seriously know you are afraid. Not just afriad to talk in front of people, which is probably true. Not just afraid that some student will think you are wasting their time (some will, because some people are dicks.). I know you are afraid to man up and do something. You always make these ex-fucking-scuses no matter what we do. You are afraid to actually do stuff with your life.
You and I both know how insecure you are when it comes to this stuff. Dont fucking be a slave to that shit. Be brave man! Be fucking brave because i love you and i hate to see life get you like this. I hate to see your insecurities own you. So man up. I know youre nervous and shit. You think John Ellway was nervous when he was in the super bowl?! Definately - but he manned up and did it anyway. What would you have done? Would you have said "There are people paying 5,000 dollars to see the superbowl, and there are 60 thousand people showing up. That's 300,000,000 dollars. I cant be responsible for that. Ill just show up and root the team on?" Cause i think thats what you would have said.
The analogy here is - you are the perfect man for the job, just like john ellway was perfect for the broncos. It was time for him to step up and he did - he overcame the nerves and whatnot. It would have been easy for him to back out, just like its easy for you to back out.
And you know what, to be honest i dont care if you take this or not. I just want to see you be brave with your life, and this seems like a perfect opprotunity.
I dont mean to come off harsh, frosty. I really care about you and wanted to let you know how i feel aobut the situation.
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I have faith in you man. Maybe take some extra time to learn the class. Take it for a month. Read the book through. That stuff isnt too hard - and to be honest (and im sorry when i say this) the current instructor isnt really very good at it. Youll definately show her up one.
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