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*Sometimes the most beautiful people Do the UGLIEST things!*
So I realized that for the past year I made you up in my mind. I thought the world of you but now that I see exactly who you are I’m amazed, hurt, sad to think the person I Loved was just this imaginary person my mind made up. You do the ugliest of things and aren’t the same person I thought I was in love with. Its so easy to change who you are for people but I never asked you to be anything but yourself. I never forced you to be someone you weren’t but you still felt the need to be someone different and now that I see who you really are I realize I loved someone that never even existed.
While on the topic of Love….isn’t it crazy to have someone standing right in front of you all along to only realize years later that you two were meant to be. End of story. I find myself running because all signs are pointing to reasons why we should be together and that scare me. NOTHING has ever felt this perfect. Never in my life have I ever felt such emotions as I do now. The sense of almost complete perfectness scares the shit out of me cause I know that this is the real thing..love I mean… and the fact that we agreed to take it day by day not rush into anything is proof that what we have is something amazing and that we are going to do all in our power to make this work. Not only do I find my best friend in you but so much more. I’m so in love with who you are! I love the way you laugh at me when I say something crazy, or the way you hold me in your arms hugging me looking in my eyes as if I’m the most beautiful person you ever met. I love they way you get me to break when I am pretending to be mad at you! There is not one thing I could ever do to fight back the smile on my face as you convince me of reasons not to be mad at you. Or the way we wrestle with each other and the way you pick me up and throw me over your shoulder before dropping me to the ground making sure I don’t get hurt. Most of all I love the way you stare on me when you think I’m not looking. I see you looking at me and at that instant I see how much you care for me.
Work…..Did I ever mention I have by far the best job in the world! I work at a place called the Little Gym and what it is is a gymnastics place for kids between 18mons - 12 years old. All together there are five instructors that teach the class. Three are there all the time. The instructors are all college kids and are by far the coolest people in the world! The kids call us Miss whatever our first name is. Its so weird to have kids call me Miss Jill. It makes me sound so old!! Stephanie Brian Kim and Craig (the four instructors) trained me all this week which was fun. We get to goof off and get paid for it! What an awesome job!! We dance to music with kids and running in circles do tumble saults with the kids and just get to act like one of them. I was so scared I wasn’t going to get the job because its so hard to get it there because you have to have a lot of patience with kids as well as be able to handle them and run around with them and just be able to relate and have fun with them. By far the best job I could have every hoped for!!
WHAT MORE COULD I ASK FOR!!
So I realized that for the past year I made you up in my mind. I thought the world of you but now that I see exactly who you are I’m amazed, hurt, sad to think the person I Loved was just this imaginary person my mind made up. You do the ugliest of things and aren’t the same person I thought I was in love with. Its so easy to change who you are for people but I never asked you to be anything but yourself. I never forced you to be someone you weren’t but you still felt the need to be someone different and now that I see who you really are I realize I loved someone that never even existed.
While on the topic of Love….isn’t it crazy to have someone standing right in front of you all along to only realize years later that you two were meant to be. End of story. I find myself running because all signs are pointing to reasons why we should be together and that scare me. NOTHING has ever felt this perfect. Never in my life have I ever felt such emotions as I do now. The sense of almost complete perfectness scares the shit out of me cause I know that this is the real thing..love I mean… and the fact that we agreed to take it day by day not rush into anything is proof that what we have is something amazing and that we are going to do all in our power to make this work. Not only do I find my best friend in you but so much more. I’m so in love with who you are! I love the way you laugh at me when I say something crazy, or the way you hold me in your arms hugging me looking in my eyes as if I’m the most beautiful person you ever met. I love they way you get me to break when I am pretending to be mad at you! There is not one thing I could ever do to fight back the smile on my face as you convince me of reasons not to be mad at you. Or the way we wrestle with each other and the way you pick me up and throw me over your shoulder before dropping me to the ground making sure I don’t get hurt. Most of all I love the way you stare on me when you think I’m not looking. I see you looking at me and at that instant I see how much you care for me.
Work…..Did I ever mention I have by far the best job in the world! I work at a place called the Little Gym and what it is is a gymnastics place for kids between 18mons - 12 years old. All together there are five instructors that teach the class. Three are there all the time. The instructors are all college kids and are by far the coolest people in the world! The kids call us Miss whatever our first name is. Its so weird to have kids call me Miss Jill. It makes me sound so old!! Stephanie Brian Kim and Craig (the four instructors) trained me all this week which was fun. We get to goof off and get paid for it! What an awesome job!! We dance to music with kids and running in circles do tumble saults with the kids and just get to act like one of them. I was so scared I wasn’t going to get the job because its so hard to get it there because you have to have a lot of patience with kids as well as be able to handle them and run around with them and just be able to relate and have fun with them. By far the best job I could have every hoped for!!
WHAT MORE COULD I ASK FOR!!