Who does the thinking for them!
I'm watchin the Real World right now, the episode in Australia where Alton hooks up with girls galore right in front of Irulan...I just don't understand guys sometimes.. Like him.. he's got a great girl who loves him and he's gonna screw it up for some play.. It's like guys can't just think with their head and their heart, they always have to think with their dick.. they don't have an ounce of self control and it kills me!! I mean, if i love someone, i can't hook up with somebody else.. Cause I'd rather be with the person I love.. But guys, they have like a totally different pattern of thinking, they're like off in left field and have no idea what thinking logically is! Anyway.. I'll stop bitching.. This episode just pissed me off cause I hate it when guys ruin something good for cheap sex.. have some self control REALLY!!
On a better note, Homegirl didn't show up at the show last night with Brian.. Soooo.. Maybe she's history.. He was so drunk I couldn't get much from him, he just kept asking me over and over again if I hated him.. Then he made me look like an idiot in front of everybody, i'm sure i'll hear about it later.. Cause he was like "baby do you hate me?" and I was like "it'd be so much easier for me right now if i just could hate you. but alas, I'm in love with you" and he was so drunk he was confused so OUT LOUD, really loud he goes "what?! did you just say you were in love with me?" and I heard guys in the background from the party they were at say "whoa, that's not a good thing to hear".. WELL thanks for your input assholes but I didn't ask for it! So now, i'm sure all these people are like "god what a freak kelli is, she told brian she was in love with him" which is SO not the way it happened.. He and I had been having that conversation for four fucking days before last night.. He was just so drunk he was confused.. Cause he's all like "i told you that back in the fall and you blew me off" OK, we TOTALLY had this conversation last MONDAY!! So I had to let him go, it was killing me and starting to hurt my feelings.. When I KNEW that it was just cause he was drunk and not to let it hurt me.. So I figured it best to tell him I loved him and get off the phone.. So after a few "baby do you hate me's" and "i miss you I really do, I love you kelli, you're so awesome's" I got him off the phone kwowing that I wasn't mad at him so he could go party with the boys again.. You just can't have a conversation like we needed to have when one member of the "team" is shitcanned.. haha.. soo.. hopefully i'll get a straighter answer soon and see where he and I are going from here. If homegirl isn't an option anymore, looks like I may be in the clearing.. so.. yay!!
for now, i'm gonna go back to sleep I think.. I'm exhausted and bored.. Hopefully things with Brian will work out, i'm tired of being nervous daily waiting for the outcome...
So until then, Just Breathe
KEL
On a better note, Homegirl didn't show up at the show last night with Brian.. Soooo.. Maybe she's history.. He was so drunk I couldn't get much from him, he just kept asking me over and over again if I hated him.. Then he made me look like an idiot in front of everybody, i'm sure i'll hear about it later.. Cause he was like "baby do you hate me?" and I was like "it'd be so much easier for me right now if i just could hate you. but alas, I'm in love with you" and he was so drunk he was confused so OUT LOUD, really loud he goes "what?! did you just say you were in love with me?" and I heard guys in the background from the party they were at say "whoa, that's not a good thing to hear".. WELL thanks for your input assholes but I didn't ask for it! So now, i'm sure all these people are like "god what a freak kelli is, she told brian she was in love with him" which is SO not the way it happened.. He and I had been having that conversation for four fucking days before last night.. He was just so drunk he was confused.. Cause he's all like "i told you that back in the fall and you blew me off" OK, we TOTALLY had this conversation last MONDAY!! So I had to let him go, it was killing me and starting to hurt my feelings.. When I KNEW that it was just cause he was drunk and not to let it hurt me.. So I figured it best to tell him I loved him and get off the phone.. So after a few "baby do you hate me's" and "i miss you I really do, I love you kelli, you're so awesome's" I got him off the phone kwowing that I wasn't mad at him so he could go party with the boys again.. You just can't have a conversation like we needed to have when one member of the "team" is shitcanned.. haha.. soo.. hopefully i'll get a straighter answer soon and see where he and I are going from here. If homegirl isn't an option anymore, looks like I may be in the clearing.. so.. yay!!
for now, i'm gonna go back to sleep I think.. I'm exhausted and bored.. Hopefully things with Brian will work out, i'm tired of being nervous daily waiting for the outcome...
So until then, Just Breathe
KEL