commentary on last entry or just on life at this moment
it was pretty amazing, i made the voyage back to lj after a very very long time away (long enough that the quick-access to the site wasn't there in the url field place! that's what you call it right) and one of the first entries i looked back over was from august 17th, sooooo long ago, a very distressed and frustrated and hurt and confused entry about the same girl who is now today even still a source of these unpleasant feelings (and many more which i am trying very hard to overcome because i am realizing they only hurt me).....
too bad she had to take my real best friend along with her....
shoot, it was the whole being friends for a long time before i moved here thing, probably, i bet that's what clinched it. otherwise i really can't imagine any reason why she could possibly stray so quickly and willingly to the Dark Side... which doesn't have to be a star wars reference but probably hopefully just one to the eternal battle between dark and light, evil, good, wrong, right, totally insensitive/unfeeling/heartless and sensitive/caring/expending of effort and energy for the sake of friendship....
bitter? of course not. i mean of course but trying to overcome it, really i'm trying..!