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today kinda sucked. i was really disappointed in myself i really wanted to lose weight but at the end of the day i ate a grilled cheese. what can i say i have no self control. today i'll have to work double as hard not to eat anything. today is duanes birthday though and his moms throwing him a barbaque. which sucks considering i will probably have to eat there. but i will try hard not to. i really don't know whats up with me lately i'm acting so incredibly strange. it sorta pisses me off the way i'm acting. i used to try so hard not to act like this. but its sorta like this is who i am i've just never been able to except it. i'm becoming everything i've never wanted to be. which kinda makes me sad. but i best be going.