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[madeinthe80s13]

So yeah i know i haven't written in here for a very long time. I need somewhere to vent however. I don't care who reads this and if you get pissed then so be it, I don't care anymore. My friends all drive me crazy, if I could even consider most of them my friends. I had one true friend a very long time ago and I was a complete bitch and lost her. I don't know if things will ever be the same between us again and to be honest, I miss her. I haven't seen my friends in 2 days and not once do I get a messsage saying "hey how are you?" or "hey how's it going" or "hey i miss you." Of course they hang out every fucking day and then that next morning or afternoon they're like omg I miss you...i love you...blah blah blah. I can't exactly help it that I can't hang out every single day because I have an amazing boyfriend who I love to death. He's the only one who's ever there for me. I can't say I have one best friend. I don't have one person I could go to talk to with all my problems. Some of them will say how two-faced someone else is and then be like ohh i love you soo much we need to hang out tomorrow. I'm sorry but if you really don't like someone then don't act like you do. Why waste your time? I just miss the way things used to be. I'm not part of the "crew" and to be honest I don't want to be because it all a bunch of shit...lets go ahead and be like other people in our school and put a name for the group. How stupid. I can't take much more of this.

I don't want your pity and if you would like to be mad about this then go for it. I'm just saying how I feel I don't really care what anyone else thinks. People change I guess...

Oh and Joe..if you ever read this. I love you more then anything in this world. You are the best boyfriend ever and I don't know what i'd do without you. You help me when i'm sad and you're always there for me when I need someone to talk to. I love you.