This time you've got yourself an anchor too heavy to move ahead with.
Wow. Gotta love my father.
He spent last night talking about how everything's harder on him.
Yeah, we get it everything's worse for you.
He talked about how he shouldn't have to pay child support or alimony once he leaves. How we don't deserve and and he doesn't know how we're going to survive without him. Well, it's simple really. You don't pay and then you can be arrested. "Not if I leave the state" Because once they find you, the situation can only get better. Things don't work like you want them to. Just because you're leaving doesn't mean your entire family is going to vanish and you'll have no responsabilities.
Then he brought up all kinds of random things. Like how he didn't want me following in my sisters footsteps. "Well I know you used to...::hushed voice:: hurt yourself. And I don't want you to start using drugs or to lose your virginity to an asshole. Then having 3 kids by 22."
Because I've never used drugs, or had sex before. There was only a three year span in my life where I was sober for an accumulation of roughly 8 months. Not to mention he's still using so I really can't take anything he says to heart.
I think between my father's incessant wishes that I didn't exist, and watching my sister try to raise her children I'm going to be a tad more careful about not having them.
Blargh. Today I stayed home. I'm sick as almighty fuck. The medications don't work so well.
School is still not going remotely well. It happens.
PLUR M'Bitches
Samm
He spent last night talking about how everything's harder on him.
Yeah, we get it everything's worse for you.
He talked about how he shouldn't have to pay child support or alimony once he leaves. How we don't deserve and and he doesn't know how we're going to survive without him. Well, it's simple really. You don't pay and then you can be arrested. "Not if I leave the state" Because once they find you, the situation can only get better. Things don't work like you want them to. Just because you're leaving doesn't mean your entire family is going to vanish and you'll have no responsabilities.
Then he brought up all kinds of random things. Like how he didn't want me following in my sisters footsteps. "Well I know you used to...::hushed voice:: hurt yourself. And I don't want you to start using drugs or to lose your virginity to an asshole. Then having 3 kids by 22."
Because I've never used drugs, or had sex before. There was only a three year span in my life where I was sober for an accumulation of roughly 8 months. Not to mention he's still using so I really can't take anything he says to heart.
I think between my father's incessant wishes that I didn't exist, and watching my sister try to raise her children I'm going to be a tad more careful about not having them.
Blargh. Today I stayed home. I'm sick as almighty fuck. The medications don't work so well.
School is still not going remotely well. It happens.
PLUR M'Bitches
Samm