xtdawgxx: i love you so much, babyboy
well, i have a few things to say and none of them are good news. first, i'm bleeding pretty bad and i might lose the baby. tony doesn't even know. he's been on tour with his band and there was no way he could have forseen that this would happen. i think it's safe to say that having another child is not something i can possibly do easily. it's left me incredibly sad and depressed and i really just want to shut out the world. i can't bring myself to tell tony. i can't even fucking make it out of bed anymore. i'd end my miserable life if i didn't have my kids depending on me.
tony wants nothing to do with me. he's busy partying and getting wasted with his band and i never even hear from him. he doesn't want me to try contacting him anymore and i promised not to. i think there are people influencing him against me. and i know for certain that a message was left on my cell that was not from my husband. i'm heartbroken over this because in our whole relationship, we've tried not to let other people interfere in it. i feel like other people are trashing me to him and he's listening to them instead of his heart.
i feel lost and abandoned.
i just want my lovie back.
tony wants nothing to do with me. he's busy partying and getting wasted with his band and i never even hear from him. he doesn't want me to try contacting him anymore and i promised not to. i think there are people influencing him against me. and i know for certain that a message was left on my cell that was not from my husband. i'm heartbroken over this because in our whole relationship, we've tried not to let other people interfere in it. i feel like other people are trashing me to him and he's listening to them instead of his heart.
i feel lost and abandoned.
i just want my lovie back.