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shanebrion: hey
Auto response from MadeByMrManson: its like acid ;-) now time for ZzzZzz...
shanebrion: well i was just seeing if everything was ok, you have been gone for a while. goodnight.
MadeByMrManson: hey
shanebrion: hey
MadeByMrManson: whass up
shanebrion: i thought you died
shanebrion: :-\
MadeByMrManson: nah
MadeByMrManson: still kickin
shanebrion: well that is good to hear
MadeByMrManson: yep!
MadeByMrManson: how you doin?
shanebrion: oookkkk
shanebrion: you ?
MadeByMrManson: coo
MadeByMrManson: sahweet
MadeByMrManson: thanks for askin
shanebrion: wasted?
MadeByMrManson: updating the journal
MadeByMrManson: whips
MadeByMrManson: nope
shanebrion: oh no
shanebrion: oh good
MadeByMrManson: yeah - i havent updated in so long
MadeByMrManson: i forgot about it
MadeByMrManson: haha
shanebrion: did you take a vacation ?
MadeByMrManson: nah
MadeByMrManson: just took a couple of days off
shanebrion: relaxing ?
MadeByMrManson: yeah - i guess so
MadeByMrManson: i slept a lot
MadeByMrManson: so that was relazing
shanebrion: yes for sure
MadeByMrManson: relaxing
shanebrion: well dont disappear anymore, i know you may not like me too much but it doesnt stop me from worrying/caring about you
shanebrion: :-\
MadeByMrManson: um
MadeByMrManson: ok
MadeByMrManson: is that a joke
shanebrion: no its not a joke
MadeByMrManson: ah ok then
shanebrion: why would you say that ?
MadeByMrManson: well let me think....
shanebrion: ok dont answer that
MadeByMrManson: wait
MadeByMrManson: im not going to get into it
MadeByMrManson: yeah
shanebrion: sorry, well you were the one mad at me
MadeByMrManson: no need to go into it
shanebrion: oooookkkkk
MadeByMrManson: its over
shanebrion: sorry :-(
MadeByMrManson: aint no thang
shanebrion: well it is to me
MadeByMrManson: well darling - you treated me like shit
MadeByMrManson: again
MadeByMrManson: so i said fuck it
MadeByMrManson: no drama remember?
MadeByMrManson: so iiiii dont need to feel like you made me feel
shanebrion: i realize that
shanebrion: yes i remember
shanebrion: but...
MadeByMrManson: ok
MadeByMrManson: but what?
shanebrion: sorry nothing
shanebrion: i just dont agree that is all
MadeByMrManson: ok
MadeByMrManson: agree with what?
shanebrion: i think it is dumb because i really like hanging out with you...
MadeByMrManson: you really like hanging out with me?
shanebrion: i mean we were together almost everyday
MadeByMrManson: oh my gosh
MadeByMrManson: yeah we were
shanebrion: and i dont like stopping all at once
shanebrion: it doesnt really make sense
MadeByMrManson: ok well hey how bout me go back to being "buddies" and you can just fuck me when you want to ok?
MadeByMrManson: is that better?
shanebrion: no
shanebrion: its not better
MadeByMrManson: this whole 6 month ride has been nothing but pain for me - and the last week has been glorious. not thinking about it all for once
shanebrion: ok, i am sorry, then we dont need to talk about it anymore
shanebrion: im glad that you are happy :-D
MadeByMrManson: thanks
shanebrion: when do you come back to work ?
MadeByMrManson: tomm
shanebrion: okkkk
shanebrion: should i stop talking ?
MadeByMrManson: well what would you like to talk about?
shanebrion: well i was just talking about basic stuff
MadeByMrManson: ah ok
shanebrion: no need to be pissy
MadeByMrManson: so how did the bar go?
MadeByMrManson: oh im not pissy
shanebrion: it went ok
MadeByMrManson: good stuff
shanebrion: that was rude
shanebrion: sorry
shanebrion: i was mad at you
MadeByMrManson: its fine
shanebrion: you didnt call me back
MadeByMrManson: well sometimes you dont get what you want
shanebrion: good one
MadeByMrManson: ;-)
shanebrion: alright sorry for bothering you
shanebrion: i thought we could talk nice
MadeByMrManson: you arent bothering me
shanebrion: sort of
MadeByMrManson: what have you been up to
MadeByMrManson: dude i have adobe photoshop
shanebrion: not much getting ready for classes
shanebrion: oh fun that is sweet :-)
MadeByMrManson: and a web cam
MadeByMrManson: im never leaving my house again
MadeByMrManson: yeah
shanebrion: hehe
MadeByMrManson: classes... good shit
shanebrion: honestly crystal i wanted to talk to you about what happened but if you are happy and if all you want to do is yell at me or whatever then thats fine,
shanebrion: we dont need to talk
MadeByMrManson: ok well what would you like to talk about shane - im not being pissy at all
shanebrion: i am just pissed that since we dont see eye to eye you think that I dont like you or that i dont want to be together
MadeByMrManson: well we have ALOT of differences
shanebrion: yes we do
MadeByMrManson: like i feel like we should be in marriage counseling and we arent married or even close
MadeByMrManson: it sucks
shanebrion: i agree
shanebrion: but
MadeByMrManson: yes?
shanebrion: rather then accusing me of not caring about you or thinking that I dont want to be together .... maybe give me a suggestion of what i could do better
shanebrion: or a compromise maybe
MadeByMrManson: ah
MadeByMrManson: i tried
MadeByMrManson: see: email i wrote you
shanebrion: not really
MadeByMrManson: you said i was being drama and making shit up in my head
shanebrion: i didnt do good either i know
MadeByMrManson: yeah you sucked really bad
shanebrion: i just didnt want you to think that I didnt care about you
shanebrion: just because i couldnt talk to you every day
MadeByMrManson: well thats not a very good way of showing it
shanebrion: sometimes i was busy
MadeByMrManson: ah ok
shanebrion: ok yes i agree
MadeByMrManson: ok
MadeByMrManson: see right now i just see you as a spoiled little boy who didnt get his way and hates it
MadeByMrManson: you just want to know that you've won
shanebrion: ok thats fine, but that is not how it is
MadeByMrManson: see if you can pull me back in one more time
MadeByMrManson: ok well im just telling you what i see
MadeByMrManson: im not trying to fight
shanebrion: i am losing a friend and someone that ive spent the last few months w/
shanebrion: for no reason
shanebrion: basically
MadeByMrManson: no reason?
MadeByMrManson: please dont get me started
shanebrion: ok fine
MadeByMrManson: see we cant even talk on here without fighting
MadeByMrManson: honestly
shanebrion: we arent fighting
MadeByMrManson: how long do you expect it to last if all we do is fight - and i treat you 50000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000 times betterthan any guy ive ever dated. so i dont know what else i needed to do. but i was fucking trying so hard to be amazing and all you did is make me feel so unimportant
shanebrion: i guess i didnt think we fought that much, i just thought we dont really agree on a lot of stuff
MadeByMrManson: i didnt think we fought a lot - YOU are the one who said it
shanebrion: oh i didnt know i said that, did i say it just now ?
MadeByMrManson: no - you said it alot of times before. everytime i would bring anything up you would say "you are always giving me shit about stuff and all we do is fight" i suppose you dont remmeber that do you?
shanebrion: well that sounds like something id say if i was being defensive
shanebrion: yes
MadeByMrManson: ok good - we are getting somewhere
MadeByMrManson: yes you did say it
shanebrion: if our problems are things that we cant change or cant at least work on then i can understand us not talking....
shanebrion: but
MadeByMrManson: shane, im sorry if im insecure about stuff. ive had tons of epople leave me in my life - and im not just talking about boys. so i have issues. sorry - my life isnt happy 24/7. its my flaw and hopefully i can grow up someday in time to not lose another guy to it
shanebrion: i mean we have been talking for a long time, was it all just physical ?
MadeByMrManson: no not at all
shanebrion: ok
shanebrion: well that is good
shanebrion: right ?
shanebrion: :-)
MadeByMrManson: yes
shanebrion: hehe
shanebrion: ok
shanebrion: well ...
shanebrion: the thing is i guess i blew it by not making you feel special
shanebrion: because you are
shanebrion: ...
shanebrion: i mean i care about you and i loved being with you but i am just kind of laid back and easy going about stuff, which is my flaw because i got way to into the relationship w/ emily so ive tried to just be not so into everything
shanebrion: i guess i just always figure everything w/ us would be fine...
MadeByMrManson: yeah
MadeByMrManson: so i get punished because you and emily didnt work out
MadeByMrManson: thats not fair
shanebrion: i mean if we didnt talk i wouldnt worry about it...
shanebrion: oh
shanebrion: well
shanebrion: well i never meant for you to be punished, i didnt feel punished i liked being w/ you ..... sorry
MadeByMrManson: i didnt mean it like that
MadeByMrManson: i just dont think i should get less ... whatever... less umm... you being "into" stuff because of a past relationship
shanebrion: all i meant when i said that was that I tried to just be more positive about things....like not worry about every little fight and make it the end of the world, etc
MadeByMrManson: just doesnt seem fair
MadeByMrManson: oh
MadeByMrManson: i do need a lot more attention than normal girls(something i need to fix asap). shaun pointed it out to me and told me to grow up or i would never get anyone to stick around. i guess hes right. and im sorry. i guess i just need to just stop worrying about stuff all the time.
shanebrion: well you are a great girl crystal, you just need to know that people do want to be w/ you and do care about you....people will love you no matter what, so please do not take every little fight or argument and make it a lifeordeath thing because it just isnt worth it
MadeByMrManson: ok
shanebrion: just be happy being you and be happy that you are with someone who cares about you
MadeByMrManson: sorry
shanebrion: :-\
shanebrion: does that make any sense ?
shanebrion: probably not
MadeByMrManson: yes it does
shanebrion: hehe
shanebrion: really ?
MadeByMrManson: yeah
shanebrion: i didnt do a good job of making you feel special, im sorry for that. hopefully you will meet someone who does because you do deserve it.
MadeByMrManson: right thanks
shanebrion: :-\
shanebrion: you being smart w/ me ?
MadeByMrManson: yeah i am
shanebrion: why
MadeByMrManson: shanebrion: i didnt do a good job of making you feel special, im sorry for that. hopefully you will meet someone who does because you do deserve it.
shanebrion: yes i do remember typing that....but why are you being smart?
MadeByMrManson: guess if thats how it is then what was the point of this convo?
shanebrion: i am being honest :-\
MadeByMrManson: ah ok
shanebrion: MadeByMrManson (12:09:40 AM): this whole 6 month ride has been nothing but pain for me - and the last week has been glorious. not thinking about it all for once
shanebrion: ;-)
shanebrion: brat
MadeByMrManson: haha
shanebrion: i am good at copying and pasting too
MadeByMrManson: im trying to be strong and not care ok, will you stop ruining it for me? ;-)
shanebrion: oh
shanebrion: sorry :-(
MadeByMrManson: haha
MadeByMrManson: nerd
shanebrion: well i just dont like not talking to you
shanebrion: im not trying to make it hard ok
MadeByMrManson: ok
shanebrion: im just telling you how i feel
MadeByMrManson: ok
shanebrion: if you dont want to be together i can accept that, but i still do care about you and love hanging out w/ you
MadeByMrManson: wait so is this my decision?
shanebrion: no no
shanebrion: well
MadeByMrManson: oh ok
MadeByMrManson: i see
shanebrion: crystal, just be happy ok
MadeByMrManson: im happy
shanebrion: ok
MadeByMrManson: what does that mean?
shanebrion: i just want you to be happy that is all
MadeByMrManson: ok?
MadeByMrManson: thanks
shanebrion: sass
MadeByMrManson: yeah well... you know me
shanebrion: hehe
shanebrion: yes
shanebrion: jake starts classes next week too :-)
MadeByMrManson: oh boy!
shanebrion: he is big collge boy now
MadeByMrManson: haha
shanebrion: are you still talking your class ???
MadeByMrManson: ha
MadeByMrManson: well lil story...
MadeByMrManson: crystal forgot to pay on time.... too much drinking etc for the last week.... yeah and they dropped her and it was full as well as ALL the other classes when she tried to get back in
MadeByMrManson: lesson #1
shanebrion: :-(
shanebrion: sorryu
MadeByMrManson: if you are going to drink and all that shit - dont forget to pay for your classes or you will get dropped
MadeByMrManson: haha
MadeByMrManson: its ok
MadeByMrManson: fall semester
shanebrion: yes good lesson
MadeByMrManson: ha
shanebrion: hehe yes there is always fall semester
MadeByMrManson: thats what im sayin
shanebrion: for sure
shanebrion: im buzzing my hair tomorrow :-D
MadeByMrManson: fun stuff
shanebrion: and im buying lord of the rings trivial pursuit
shanebrion: ;-)
shanebrion: plus tanner moved in =-O
MadeByMrManson: i was just going to ask that
MadeByMrManson: well have fun w/ that
shanebrion: well sort of
shanebrion: well thanks
MadeByMrManson: now you can hit up the bar every night!!
MadeByMrManson: WOOHoOO!!
shanebrion: yeah right neither of us have any money
MadeByMrManson: ah
MadeByMrManson: yeah that kinda would suck --
shanebrion: he doesnt even have a job yet, his parents just got divorced so i let him stay here for a while
MadeByMrManson: no loud sex
shanebrion: :-\
MadeByMrManson: damn
MadeByMrManson: oh no!!!
MadeByMrManson: poor boy!
MadeByMrManson: that really sucks
shanebrion: did we have loud sex?
MadeByMrManson: i think so
shanebrion: yeah
shanebrion: but...
MadeByMrManson: wouldnt work with a roommate
MadeByMrManson: hah
shanebrion: you faked most of the time anyhow =-O
MadeByMrManson: nice
shanebrion: hey you typed it not me
shanebrion: that hurts my feelings
MadeByMrManson: i wrote that huge long entry about my childhood and other shit and all you pulled out of it was one little statement and then twisted it around
shanebrion: i wouldve tried something else
MadeByMrManson: jesus
shanebrion: :-)
MadeByMrManson: i never faked it
shanebrion: hehe
shanebrion: im just kiddin
shanebrion: im just fakin silly
shanebrion: ;-)
MadeByMrManson: but we dont have to worry about that anymore do we... i hear bar sluts dont fake
MadeByMrManson: ;-) ;-) ;-)
shanebrion: ha, yeah well sending a mean IM is one thing but actually doing is another
MadeByMrManson: ah
shanebrion: i was just being a dick sorry
shanebrion: i didnt mean it
MadeByMrManson: yeah you were
MadeByMrManson: its ok
MadeByMrManson: refresh refresh refresh
MadeByMrManson: ;-)
shanebrion: hehe
shanebrion: ok well
shanebrion: hehe
shanebrion: nice pics
MadeByMrManson: yeah it was a fun night
shanebrion: good
shanebrion: ok well i will let you sleeep
shanebrion: im glad you are still alive
MadeByMrManson: thanks
MadeByMrManson: so hey
shanebrion: yes
MadeByMrManson: is tanner not working?
shanebrion: not yet
MadeByMrManson: oh so hes home allllll day?
shanebrion: he is trying to get a job at abercrombie
shanebrion: hes in and out
MadeByMrManson: christ
MadeByMrManson: oh i see
shanebrion: why ??????
MadeByMrManson: well then
MadeByMrManson: oh you know ;-)
shanebrion: ha yeah right
shanebrion: really /?
MadeByMrManson: sure
shanebrion: hmm well let me see if i can get him to go home for the day
shanebrion: ill let you know
shanebrion: :-)
MadeByMrManson: you'll let me know?
MadeByMrManson: right
MadeByMrManson: well
shanebrion: yeah tomorrow morning
MadeByMrManson: ill hold my breath
shanebrion: whoa
shanebrion: um ok
MadeByMrManson: why would he go home?
MadeByMrManson: haha
MadeByMrManson: joking
shanebrion: i just meant get him out of the house
shanebrion: ya know
MadeByMrManson: chill out mr liad back
MadeByMrManson: yeah
shanebrion: somewhere
MadeByMrManson: right
MadeByMrManson: yeah him being there would have been very inconvenient for my sex life
shanebrion: mine too silly
MadeByMrManson: ;-)
shanebrion: cause you are my sex life
shanebrion: or wait
shanebrion: were
shanebrion: sorry
MadeByMrManson: oh damn
MadeByMrManson: well if you are nice maybe... ;-)
MadeByMrManson: blowjob?
MadeByMrManson: haha
shanebrion: hehe
shanebrion: heeeyyyyy
MadeByMrManson: haha
shanebrion: your specialty eh ?
MadeByMrManson: you know it
shanebrion: holla
MadeByMrManson: :-D
shanebrion: ok well sleep good and ill talk to you hopefully tomorrow at say 11 when i get in
MadeByMrManson: haha you suck
MadeByMrManson: k sounds good
shanebrion: nite
shanebrion signed off at 12:54:51 AM.
Auto response from MadeByMrManson: its like acid ;-) now time for ZzzZzz...
shanebrion: well i was just seeing if everything was ok, you have been gone for a while. goodnight.
MadeByMrManson: hey
shanebrion: hey
MadeByMrManson: whass up
shanebrion: i thought you died
shanebrion: :-\
MadeByMrManson: nah
MadeByMrManson: still kickin
shanebrion: well that is good to hear
MadeByMrManson: yep!
MadeByMrManson: how you doin?
shanebrion: oookkkk
shanebrion: you ?
MadeByMrManson: coo
MadeByMrManson: sahweet
MadeByMrManson: thanks for askin
shanebrion: wasted?
MadeByMrManson: updating the journal
MadeByMrManson: whips
MadeByMrManson: nope
shanebrion: oh no
shanebrion: oh good
MadeByMrManson: yeah - i havent updated in so long
MadeByMrManson: i forgot about it
MadeByMrManson: haha
shanebrion: did you take a vacation ?
MadeByMrManson: nah
MadeByMrManson: just took a couple of days off
shanebrion: relaxing ?
MadeByMrManson: yeah - i guess so
MadeByMrManson: i slept a lot
MadeByMrManson: so that was relazing
shanebrion: yes for sure
MadeByMrManson: relaxing
shanebrion: well dont disappear anymore, i know you may not like me too much but it doesnt stop me from worrying/caring about you
shanebrion: :-\
MadeByMrManson: um
MadeByMrManson: ok
MadeByMrManson: is that a joke
shanebrion: no its not a joke
MadeByMrManson: ah ok then
shanebrion: why would you say that ?
MadeByMrManson: well let me think....
shanebrion: ok dont answer that
MadeByMrManson: wait
MadeByMrManson: im not going to get into it
MadeByMrManson: yeah
shanebrion: sorry, well you were the one mad at me
MadeByMrManson: no need to go into it
shanebrion: oooookkkkk
MadeByMrManson: its over
shanebrion: sorry :-(
MadeByMrManson: aint no thang
shanebrion: well it is to me
MadeByMrManson: well darling - you treated me like shit
MadeByMrManson: again
MadeByMrManson: so i said fuck it
MadeByMrManson: no drama remember?
MadeByMrManson: so iiiii dont need to feel like you made me feel
shanebrion: i realize that
shanebrion: yes i remember
shanebrion: but...
MadeByMrManson: ok
MadeByMrManson: but what?
shanebrion: sorry nothing
shanebrion: i just dont agree that is all
MadeByMrManson: ok
MadeByMrManson: agree with what?
shanebrion: i think it is dumb because i really like hanging out with you...
MadeByMrManson: you really like hanging out with me?
shanebrion: i mean we were together almost everyday
MadeByMrManson: oh my gosh
MadeByMrManson: yeah we were
shanebrion: and i dont like stopping all at once
shanebrion: it doesnt really make sense
MadeByMrManson: ok well hey how bout me go back to being "buddies" and you can just fuck me when you want to ok?
MadeByMrManson: is that better?
shanebrion: no
shanebrion: its not better
MadeByMrManson: this whole 6 month ride has been nothing but pain for me - and the last week has been glorious. not thinking about it all for once
shanebrion: ok, i am sorry, then we dont need to talk about it anymore
shanebrion: im glad that you are happy :-D
MadeByMrManson: thanks
shanebrion: when do you come back to work ?
MadeByMrManson: tomm
shanebrion: okkkk
shanebrion: should i stop talking ?
MadeByMrManson: well what would you like to talk about?
shanebrion: well i was just talking about basic stuff
MadeByMrManson: ah ok
shanebrion: no need to be pissy
MadeByMrManson: so how did the bar go?
MadeByMrManson: oh im not pissy
shanebrion: it went ok
MadeByMrManson: good stuff
shanebrion: that was rude
shanebrion: sorry
shanebrion: i was mad at you
MadeByMrManson: its fine
shanebrion: you didnt call me back
MadeByMrManson: well sometimes you dont get what you want
shanebrion: good one
MadeByMrManson: ;-)
shanebrion: alright sorry for bothering you
shanebrion: i thought we could talk nice
MadeByMrManson: you arent bothering me
shanebrion: sort of
MadeByMrManson: what have you been up to
MadeByMrManson: dude i have adobe photoshop
shanebrion: not much getting ready for classes
shanebrion: oh fun that is sweet :-)
MadeByMrManson: and a web cam
MadeByMrManson: im never leaving my house again
MadeByMrManson: yeah
shanebrion: hehe
MadeByMrManson: classes... good shit
shanebrion: honestly crystal i wanted to talk to you about what happened but if you are happy and if all you want to do is yell at me or whatever then thats fine,
shanebrion: we dont need to talk
MadeByMrManson: ok well what would you like to talk about shane - im not being pissy at all
shanebrion: i am just pissed that since we dont see eye to eye you think that I dont like you or that i dont want to be together
MadeByMrManson: well we have ALOT of differences
shanebrion: yes we do
MadeByMrManson: like i feel like we should be in marriage counseling and we arent married or even close
MadeByMrManson: it sucks
shanebrion: i agree
shanebrion: but
MadeByMrManson: yes?
shanebrion: rather then accusing me of not caring about you or thinking that I dont want to be together .... maybe give me a suggestion of what i could do better
shanebrion: or a compromise maybe
MadeByMrManson: ah
MadeByMrManson: i tried
MadeByMrManson: see: email i wrote you
shanebrion: not really
MadeByMrManson: you said i was being drama and making shit up in my head
shanebrion: i didnt do good either i know
MadeByMrManson: yeah you sucked really bad
shanebrion: i just didnt want you to think that I didnt care about you
shanebrion: just because i couldnt talk to you every day
MadeByMrManson: well thats not a very good way of showing it
shanebrion: sometimes i was busy
MadeByMrManson: ah ok
shanebrion: ok yes i agree
MadeByMrManson: ok
MadeByMrManson: see right now i just see you as a spoiled little boy who didnt get his way and hates it
MadeByMrManson: you just want to know that you've won
shanebrion: ok thats fine, but that is not how it is
MadeByMrManson: see if you can pull me back in one more time
MadeByMrManson: ok well im just telling you what i see
MadeByMrManson: im not trying to fight
shanebrion: i am losing a friend and someone that ive spent the last few months w/
shanebrion: for no reason
shanebrion: basically
MadeByMrManson: no reason?
MadeByMrManson: please dont get me started
shanebrion: ok fine
MadeByMrManson: see we cant even talk on here without fighting
MadeByMrManson: honestly
shanebrion: we arent fighting
MadeByMrManson: how long do you expect it to last if all we do is fight - and i treat you 50000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000 times betterthan any guy ive ever dated. so i dont know what else i needed to do. but i was fucking trying so hard to be amazing and all you did is make me feel so unimportant
shanebrion: i guess i didnt think we fought that much, i just thought we dont really agree on a lot of stuff
MadeByMrManson: i didnt think we fought a lot - YOU are the one who said it
shanebrion: oh i didnt know i said that, did i say it just now ?
MadeByMrManson: no - you said it alot of times before. everytime i would bring anything up you would say "you are always giving me shit about stuff and all we do is fight" i suppose you dont remmeber that do you?
shanebrion: well that sounds like something id say if i was being defensive
shanebrion: yes
MadeByMrManson: ok good - we are getting somewhere
MadeByMrManson: yes you did say it
shanebrion: if our problems are things that we cant change or cant at least work on then i can understand us not talking....
shanebrion: but
MadeByMrManson: shane, im sorry if im insecure about stuff. ive had tons of epople leave me in my life - and im not just talking about boys. so i have issues. sorry - my life isnt happy 24/7. its my flaw and hopefully i can grow up someday in time to not lose another guy to it
shanebrion: i mean we have been talking for a long time, was it all just physical ?
MadeByMrManson: no not at all
shanebrion: ok
shanebrion: well that is good
shanebrion: right ?
shanebrion: :-)
MadeByMrManson: yes
shanebrion: hehe
shanebrion: ok
shanebrion: well ...
shanebrion: the thing is i guess i blew it by not making you feel special
shanebrion: because you are
shanebrion: ...
shanebrion: i mean i care about you and i loved being with you but i am just kind of laid back and easy going about stuff, which is my flaw because i got way to into the relationship w/ emily so ive tried to just be not so into everything
shanebrion: i guess i just always figure everything w/ us would be fine...
MadeByMrManson: yeah
MadeByMrManson: so i get punished because you and emily didnt work out
MadeByMrManson: thats not fair
shanebrion: i mean if we didnt talk i wouldnt worry about it...
shanebrion: oh
shanebrion: well
shanebrion: well i never meant for you to be punished, i didnt feel punished i liked being w/ you ..... sorry
MadeByMrManson: i didnt mean it like that
MadeByMrManson: i just dont think i should get less ... whatever... less umm... you being "into" stuff because of a past relationship
shanebrion: all i meant when i said that was that I tried to just be more positive about things....like not worry about every little fight and make it the end of the world, etc
MadeByMrManson: just doesnt seem fair
MadeByMrManson: oh
MadeByMrManson: i do need a lot more attention than normal girls(something i need to fix asap). shaun pointed it out to me and told me to grow up or i would never get anyone to stick around. i guess hes right. and im sorry. i guess i just need to just stop worrying about stuff all the time.
shanebrion: well you are a great girl crystal, you just need to know that people do want to be w/ you and do care about you....people will love you no matter what, so please do not take every little fight or argument and make it a lifeordeath thing because it just isnt worth it
MadeByMrManson: ok
shanebrion: just be happy being you and be happy that you are with someone who cares about you
MadeByMrManson: sorry
shanebrion: :-\
shanebrion: does that make any sense ?
shanebrion: probably not
MadeByMrManson: yes it does
shanebrion: hehe
shanebrion: really ?
MadeByMrManson: yeah
shanebrion: i didnt do a good job of making you feel special, im sorry for that. hopefully you will meet someone who does because you do deserve it.
MadeByMrManson: right thanks
shanebrion: :-\
shanebrion: you being smart w/ me ?
MadeByMrManson: yeah i am
shanebrion: why
MadeByMrManson: shanebrion: i didnt do a good job of making you feel special, im sorry for that. hopefully you will meet someone who does because you do deserve it.
shanebrion: yes i do remember typing that....but why are you being smart?
MadeByMrManson: guess if thats how it is then what was the point of this convo?
shanebrion: i am being honest :-\
MadeByMrManson: ah ok
shanebrion: MadeByMrManson (12:09:40 AM): this whole 6 month ride has been nothing but pain for me - and the last week has been glorious. not thinking about it all for once
shanebrion: ;-)
shanebrion: brat
MadeByMrManson: haha
shanebrion: i am good at copying and pasting too
MadeByMrManson: im trying to be strong and not care ok, will you stop ruining it for me? ;-)
shanebrion: oh
shanebrion: sorry :-(
MadeByMrManson: haha
MadeByMrManson: nerd
shanebrion: well i just dont like not talking to you
shanebrion: im not trying to make it hard ok
MadeByMrManson: ok
shanebrion: im just telling you how i feel
MadeByMrManson: ok
shanebrion: if you dont want to be together i can accept that, but i still do care about you and love hanging out w/ you
MadeByMrManson: wait so is this my decision?
shanebrion: no no
shanebrion: well
MadeByMrManson: oh ok
MadeByMrManson: i see
shanebrion: crystal, just be happy ok
MadeByMrManson: im happy
shanebrion: ok
MadeByMrManson: what does that mean?
shanebrion: i just want you to be happy that is all
MadeByMrManson: ok?
MadeByMrManson: thanks
shanebrion: sass
MadeByMrManson: yeah well... you know me
shanebrion: hehe
shanebrion: yes
shanebrion: jake starts classes next week too :-)
MadeByMrManson: oh boy!
shanebrion: he is big collge boy now
MadeByMrManson: haha
shanebrion: are you still talking your class ???
MadeByMrManson: ha
MadeByMrManson: well lil story...
MadeByMrManson: crystal forgot to pay on time.... too much drinking etc for the last week.... yeah and they dropped her and it was full as well as ALL the other classes when she tried to get back in
MadeByMrManson: lesson #1
shanebrion: :-(
shanebrion: sorryu
MadeByMrManson: if you are going to drink and all that shit - dont forget to pay for your classes or you will get dropped
MadeByMrManson: haha
MadeByMrManson: its ok
MadeByMrManson: fall semester
shanebrion: yes good lesson
MadeByMrManson: ha
shanebrion: hehe yes there is always fall semester
MadeByMrManson: thats what im sayin
shanebrion: for sure
shanebrion: im buzzing my hair tomorrow :-D
MadeByMrManson: fun stuff
shanebrion: and im buying lord of the rings trivial pursuit
shanebrion: ;-)
shanebrion: plus tanner moved in =-O
MadeByMrManson: i was just going to ask that
MadeByMrManson: well have fun w/ that
shanebrion: well sort of
shanebrion: well thanks
MadeByMrManson: now you can hit up the bar every night!!
MadeByMrManson: WOOHoOO!!
shanebrion: yeah right neither of us have any money
MadeByMrManson: ah
MadeByMrManson: yeah that kinda would suck --
shanebrion: he doesnt even have a job yet, his parents just got divorced so i let him stay here for a while
MadeByMrManson: no loud sex
shanebrion: :-\
MadeByMrManson: damn
MadeByMrManson: oh no!!!
MadeByMrManson: poor boy!
MadeByMrManson: that really sucks
shanebrion: did we have loud sex?
MadeByMrManson: i think so
shanebrion: yeah
shanebrion: but...
MadeByMrManson: wouldnt work with a roommate
MadeByMrManson: hah
shanebrion: you faked most of the time anyhow =-O
MadeByMrManson: nice
shanebrion: hey you typed it not me
shanebrion: that hurts my feelings
MadeByMrManson: i wrote that huge long entry about my childhood and other shit and all you pulled out of it was one little statement and then twisted it around
shanebrion: i wouldve tried something else
MadeByMrManson: jesus
shanebrion: :-)
MadeByMrManson: i never faked it
shanebrion: hehe
shanebrion: im just kiddin
shanebrion: im just fakin silly
shanebrion: ;-)
MadeByMrManson: but we dont have to worry about that anymore do we... i hear bar sluts dont fake
MadeByMrManson: ;-) ;-) ;-)
shanebrion: ha, yeah well sending a mean IM is one thing but actually doing is another
MadeByMrManson: ah
shanebrion: i was just being a dick sorry
shanebrion: i didnt mean it
MadeByMrManson: yeah you were
MadeByMrManson: its ok
MadeByMrManson: refresh refresh refresh
MadeByMrManson: ;-)
shanebrion: hehe
shanebrion: ok well
shanebrion: hehe
shanebrion: nice pics
MadeByMrManson: yeah it was a fun night
shanebrion: good
shanebrion: ok well i will let you sleeep
shanebrion: im glad you are still alive
MadeByMrManson: thanks
MadeByMrManson: so hey
shanebrion: yes
MadeByMrManson: is tanner not working?
shanebrion: not yet
MadeByMrManson: oh so hes home allllll day?
shanebrion: he is trying to get a job at abercrombie
shanebrion: hes in and out
MadeByMrManson: christ
MadeByMrManson: oh i see
shanebrion: why ??????
MadeByMrManson: well then
MadeByMrManson: oh you know ;-)
shanebrion: ha yeah right
shanebrion: really /?
MadeByMrManson: sure
shanebrion: hmm well let me see if i can get him to go home for the day
shanebrion: ill let you know
shanebrion: :-)
MadeByMrManson: you'll let me know?
MadeByMrManson: right
MadeByMrManson: well
shanebrion: yeah tomorrow morning
MadeByMrManson: ill hold my breath
shanebrion: whoa
shanebrion: um ok
MadeByMrManson: why would he go home?
MadeByMrManson: haha
MadeByMrManson: joking
shanebrion: i just meant get him out of the house
shanebrion: ya know
MadeByMrManson: chill out mr liad back
MadeByMrManson: yeah
shanebrion: somewhere
MadeByMrManson: right
MadeByMrManson: yeah him being there would have been very inconvenient for my sex life
shanebrion: mine too silly
MadeByMrManson: ;-)
shanebrion: cause you are my sex life
shanebrion: or wait
shanebrion: were
shanebrion: sorry
MadeByMrManson: oh damn
MadeByMrManson: well if you are nice maybe... ;-)
MadeByMrManson: blowjob?
MadeByMrManson: haha
shanebrion: hehe
shanebrion: heeeyyyyy
MadeByMrManson: haha
shanebrion: your specialty eh ?
MadeByMrManson: you know it
shanebrion: holla
MadeByMrManson: :-D
shanebrion: ok well sleep good and ill talk to you hopefully tomorrow at say 11 when i get in
MadeByMrManson: haha you suck
MadeByMrManson: k sounds good
shanebrion: nite
shanebrion signed off at 12:54:51 AM.