who needs a drink?
Crystal,
so there i was standing in a bathroom stall across the street at timberwolf, sobbing a little too loud for my own comfort. then "boom" everything stops. as if time no longer had an even pace. i realize that i have finally lost it. and i have hurt you in the process. i regain my composure, i lift my head. i leave the bathroom and come home to write this letter......
my song of the day is by train. i love finding old cds and listening to tracks i never knew existed. its like finding money in a coat you havent worn in months or even years.
beautiful
anyhow its called mississippi.
The shape of her horizon
Makes the morning sun
When she puts her eyes on
Each and anyone
She's the one that makes me fall
Midnight moon shines through it all
so good. now sure how i passed over it before.
blah.
oh im annoyed. do you ever have those strange nights where tons of stuff happens that is just odd and you get news that is annoying or unexpected?
yeah one of those nights.
but all in all im in a pretty good mood. well sort of. whatever.
im going to get drinkage asap. i need some shots and some drinks and some food. yes food. but im not sure what i want really. just something super yummy.
to make my night super spectacular.
super super super.
oh -- almost forgot this bit of news. so obviously it wasnt a highlight of my night. but just a point of interest. mr smallville... yes thats right..you remember him from like 2 months ago or whatever.. nicholas monroe.
called me. ugh so gross. so annoying. but oh so funny.
couldnt help but imagine the lack of everything he has.
and chuckled to myself
i made him feel pretty stupid i think but not in a bitchy way, well kinda i guess. more of a i dont give a flying fuck about you and you are a complete moroon.
ok im not going to waste another minute of my life talking, thinking, or writing on that subject.
i heard lil kim earlier today and felt the need to dance. i thought about how cool it would be if desi and i could get part time weekend jobs at a club, a sweet one, in detroit - bartending or being go go dancers.
ill have to look into that
i think it would just be fun.
my little brother, james, was taking a bath when i got home today and i went in to get some lotion - he was seeing how long he could hold his breath under water. and he popped up and said HIIIIII CRYSTAL!! such excitement. he then informed me he was going to stay the night at rickys tonight(his best friend)
and asked what i was doing tonight. i said im staying the night at one of my friends too.
shane counts.
he was so thrilled that we were going to be doing the same exact thing on the same exact night.
he asked if my friend and i were going to play toys because thats what he and ricky do.
i said no - we will probably watch tv or movies or something. and he said "RICKY AND I WATCH MOVIES!!!"
hehe. so darn cute.
then he got out of the bath and we played high five... you know.. down low too slow.
he loves that - especially when he gets me or i miss him.
then george and i had a breif convo about lord of the rings because we both saw it last night.
he loved it of course.
then i got ready.
my dad solved my $$ probs. so im good to go. nothing is going to bounce and i actually have some extra money.
blah.
which is where the drinks and food come in to play.
i need to make a list of people/things in my life that rock or are good. in no particular order.. just as i think of them..
1. desi - my bestest friend ever. she can listen to me go on and on and on about any dumb situation that happened to take place on any certian day, or about stupid boys, or about my money problems. and shes always got a solution. even if its just FUCK HIM!! LETS GET DRUNK!!
its always something brilliant. plus we think completly alike and always have so much fun.
2. daddy - always there with his checkbook. my walking wallet. hehe. even after i yell at him for making fun of my clothes or my hair of just for something stupid i say. plus hes the best dad in the history of the world. hes proved himself 500 times over. like the time shaun broke up with me and he(dad) called in sick to work to hang out with me and keep me occupied. anything for your little girl right?
i know i cant repay him -- but i definantly appreciate him.
3. my little brothers - for being cute and making me laugh even when i dont think i can breathe. and for being cute little boys that i can take care of. i love them more than anything and i dont know what i would do without them around.
4. past people who have fizzucked me over for making me stronger, wiser, and tougher. to all of you - thanks!
5. shane - even though we really havent been dating that long... we have gotten to be good friends in the last 6 months and he cracks me up alot. he always seems to get upset easily about silly stuff but he can be really cute and make me feel better if im having a crappy day.
ok thats all i cant think of off the top of my head and im getting tired of writing.
plus this entry is going nowhere.
hasta
so there i was standing in a bathroom stall across the street at timberwolf, sobbing a little too loud for my own comfort. then "boom" everything stops. as if time no longer had an even pace. i realize that i have finally lost it. and i have hurt you in the process. i regain my composure, i lift my head. i leave the bathroom and come home to write this letter......
my song of the day is by train. i love finding old cds and listening to tracks i never knew existed. its like finding money in a coat you havent worn in months or even years.
beautiful
anyhow its called mississippi.
The shape of her horizon
Makes the morning sun
When she puts her eyes on
Each and anyone
She's the one that makes me fall
Midnight moon shines through it all
so good. now sure how i passed over it before.
blah.
oh im annoyed. do you ever have those strange nights where tons of stuff happens that is just odd and you get news that is annoying or unexpected?
yeah one of those nights.
but all in all im in a pretty good mood. well sort of. whatever.
im going to get drinkage asap. i need some shots and some drinks and some food. yes food. but im not sure what i want really. just something super yummy.
to make my night super spectacular.
super super super.
oh -- almost forgot this bit of news. so obviously it wasnt a highlight of my night. but just a point of interest. mr smallville... yes thats right..you remember him from like 2 months ago or whatever.. nicholas monroe.
called me. ugh so gross. so annoying. but oh so funny.
couldnt help but imagine the lack of everything he has.
and chuckled to myself
i made him feel pretty stupid i think but not in a bitchy way, well kinda i guess. more of a i dont give a flying fuck about you and you are a complete moroon.
ok im not going to waste another minute of my life talking, thinking, or writing on that subject.
i heard lil kim earlier today and felt the need to dance. i thought about how cool it would be if desi and i could get part time weekend jobs at a club, a sweet one, in detroit - bartending or being go go dancers.
ill have to look into that
i think it would just be fun.
my little brother, james, was taking a bath when i got home today and i went in to get some lotion - he was seeing how long he could hold his breath under water. and he popped up and said HIIIIII CRYSTAL!! such excitement. he then informed me he was going to stay the night at rickys tonight(his best friend)
and asked what i was doing tonight. i said im staying the night at one of my friends too.
shane counts.
he was so thrilled that we were going to be doing the same exact thing on the same exact night.
he asked if my friend and i were going to play toys because thats what he and ricky do.
i said no - we will probably watch tv or movies or something. and he said "RICKY AND I WATCH MOVIES!!!"
hehe. so darn cute.
then he got out of the bath and we played high five... you know.. down low too slow.
he loves that - especially when he gets me or i miss him.
then george and i had a breif convo about lord of the rings because we both saw it last night.
he loved it of course.
then i got ready.
my dad solved my $$ probs. so im good to go. nothing is going to bounce and i actually have some extra money.
blah.
which is where the drinks and food come in to play.
i need to make a list of people/things in my life that rock or are good. in no particular order.. just as i think of them..
1. desi - my bestest friend ever. she can listen to me go on and on and on about any dumb situation that happened to take place on any certian day, or about stupid boys, or about my money problems. and shes always got a solution. even if its just FUCK HIM!! LETS GET DRUNK!!
its always something brilliant. plus we think completly alike and always have so much fun.
2. daddy - always there with his checkbook. my walking wallet. hehe. even after i yell at him for making fun of my clothes or my hair of just for something stupid i say. plus hes the best dad in the history of the world. hes proved himself 500 times over. like the time shaun broke up with me and he(dad) called in sick to work to hang out with me and keep me occupied. anything for your little girl right?
i know i cant repay him -- but i definantly appreciate him.
3. my little brothers - for being cute and making me laugh even when i dont think i can breathe. and for being cute little boys that i can take care of. i love them more than anything and i dont know what i would do without them around.
4. past people who have fizzucked me over for making me stronger, wiser, and tougher. to all of you - thanks!
5. shane - even though we really havent been dating that long... we have gotten to be good friends in the last 6 months and he cracks me up alot. he always seems to get upset easily about silly stuff but he can be really cute and make me feel better if im having a crappy day.
ok thats all i cant think of off the top of my head and im getting tired of writing.
plus this entry is going nowhere.
hasta