i deserve to be shot

[madebymrmanson]

i know everything you show me
and everything you've shown me ive fallen in love with

i hate only being one part of your world
when i want to be your life
not just its scenery

all my life i dreamed someone
would want to tell the world they loved me
but for as long as i can remember
no one has ever wanted to divulge that

i don't know
i just feel so god damn separated from every
single aspect of life and i cant move away from it
im jealous of everything all of it
anything that happens outside of my house
anything that does a better job of making you smile than i can
i hate that im stuck here
i hate it
i want my life back

i hate that when i feel like crap
i think about you
and when you feel like crap
you think about death

i hate that being stuck in this place
has forced me into some state of over sensitivity

this life means about as much
as a used tissue without you

you are the only light that allows me to see differently
i feel sometimes like im the dimmest light in your world
that maybe because you are so amazing
and i feel so whatever in comparison

i still get butterflies when i see you
it always feels new
i need a new word to use other than love
cause its beyond that
i love you so much that it hurts
all i want to be is the one that makes you
feel like life is worth it

and i want the world to know that i am that
important to someone
there isn't a single thing i desire more
than your heart

it has become the object of my reason
and reason for living
your heart is my air

and my air is thin