i wish i could sleep but i cant lay on my back cuz there's a knife there for everyday ive known you
wow.
its been a while hasnt it? sorry about the crazy collages. its just how ive felt lately.
so lets see where to begin. ok so last weekend patrick came to my house on friday night till my dad got back cuz i was watching nicholas. sometime during the night i was walking up my stairs and stepped on a tack which went all the way into my foot. it hurt so bad. and and when i pulled it out blood gushed out of the tiny hole.
but patrick was there to hold tissue over it till it stopped bleeding and then i put a band aid on it.
then we left my house at like midnight to go back to detroit. and i hung out there till sunday night. (see pics a few entries below)
we had fun. we went to lord and taylor in the 12 oaks mall to see if we could find him a super cool hat. no luck.
so he bought me a baileys shake from the haagen dasz shop. yum! there was also a trip to meijer and then ihop with kyle. we had fun
this week has been hectic. work is beyond crazy. BEYOND!
36 days till marilyn at the palace. IM SO EXCITED!
we went to the dollar on wednesday and had fun. kinda. the music sucked but ... yeah. we made our own fun. ill of course post pics when i get them from desi. woohoo!! im so boring right now.
i slept 12 hours last night to make up for not getting any sleep wed night. that was nice. but i had a crazy dream about a plane crashing into my little brothers school and killing both of them. it was so bad i woke up crying AND begged my dad not to send them to school today. he didnt go along with that.
so i called mr k today at 11am to make sure everything was ok. it was. mr k was one of my teachers in high school who i still email and talk to. hes super cool!!
he said all was a-ok! but im sure he thought i was nuts. and im keeping a close watch on the news online to make sure nothing happens. but they are out of school in like an hour and a half so im staying cool.
i know - im psycho!
haha.
this weekend is:
patricks tonight - after freaking silver bells. so annoying.
then tomorrow desi and i are going with amber to grand rapids to look for wedding dresses.
then desi and i are probably going to hang out with shane.
then its sunday which ='s SLEEP ALL DAY!!!
seems like there was something else i wanted to tell you about..
hmm i cant remember.
james left a great comment in my journal earlier -
"The only problem is you're going to be speaking in Crystal, and only one person actually understands the language. Everyone else is on the outside looking in tryin to crack the code, but people being people will be afraid to take the leap and make an assumption and expose themselves to being wrong. So instead we will think our little thoughts and hope our little hopes and nod our heads and smile and take no chances because God forbid we be wrong."
good point.
im wearing the comfiest clothes today
but im going to freeze to death at silver bells.
silver bells. what a silly name. its not even december. but ugh. christmas shopping. ew! dont even get me started on my money problems.
you know the never ending ones.
i am in possesion of mechanical animals. SO GOOD! seriously. you need to listen to it. coma white, last day on earth, and speed of pain. AMAZING!
oh yes oh yes oh yes.
i havent even touched the other 5 cd's i bought last week. im just listening to this nonstop. i even put on my makeup in the morning with headphones on. awww yeah.
weighed myself last night - 97. sweet!
he had the greatest dream last night --
I had a dream that I was naked and sitting in some sort of canvass chair in a large room
large enough that that I couldn't see the walls they were past the horizon on all sides
the room was a white ceiling and a tan carpet like a room in a house except all I could see
is floor and ceiling the room was lit up with white light there was a lamp next to the chair
with a red lamp shade on it upside down
it was very clean there was no smell
an attractive girl with black hair red lips and three arms
two on the left one on the right no clothes
laid pieces of glass on either of my thighs wall squatting between my legs
she angled there tips into my skin ever so slightly
then her head whipped back she sighed in an animal way
her head came down and she spit blood into my face
and pushed the glass under my skin so you could see it underneath
I woke up in a swimming pool
then woke up in my bed
well that and the slingshot throwing dogs into the air dream where there was invisible razorblade wire that were mangling the dogs.
DREAM RECORDER!! i dont think its impossible.
i should seriously work on that.
anyhow. mr smallville called me last saturday night. i didnt see or hear it ring and he didnt leave a vmail.
weirdo!
desi made me a card like hand made the whole thing
it is awesome
like something you would buy in a store.
its hanging on my cube wall.
it says --
"Crystal VanNorman -
Just a little note to tell you how much I appreciate you! Im so glad we have become such good friends these past couple of months. You are the best and thank you for always putting up with my bullshit! i (heart) you
Love, Desi Jo"
its cute. trust me on that one.
im hungry. i had some mixed nuts and like 2 slices of cheese for lunch yesterday. and then some saurcraut(sp?) and a package of blue rasberry gushers for dinner last night.
and nothing yet today. its 2pm. woohoo! doin good crystal.
i like this no eating thing. i lose weight really fast. it rocks.
no need for my Adipex, Phentermine, Bontril, Meridia, Phendimetrazine, or Tenuate pills.
oh im funny.
REQUIEM STYLE!
what else should we talk about? im feeling really boring and tired
so boring and tired actually. not really just so.
or both. what???
i am wearing a combo of two perfumes today and it has this smell.
like amazingness. i move and smell it every now and then. its a yummy body spray all over and then i put the expensive stuff on just my wrists and neck.
it worked out perfectly
and there is a slight hint of my vanilla victorias secret lotion and baby oil i put on my legs when i take a bath b/c it makes them soft.
vickies has the greatest lotion in all the land. its so good.
but anyhow i just wanted you to know i smell like the blue sky on a spring day.
oh yes - JUST like that.
if you dont know what that smells like
find me.
east lansing
hagadorn
eyde building
suite 320
cube 377
ill let you smell me
btw this will be my last entry b/c all of the stalkers are going to come out of the woodwork and murder me
oh well. its for the best i suppose.
just like untied shoelaces and runs in panthose
1. you can take the shoes off easier
and
2. you get new pantyhose
did i just lose you?
figures.
have a good weekend
its been a while hasnt it? sorry about the crazy collages. its just how ive felt lately.
so lets see where to begin. ok so last weekend patrick came to my house on friday night till my dad got back cuz i was watching nicholas. sometime during the night i was walking up my stairs and stepped on a tack which went all the way into my foot. it hurt so bad. and and when i pulled it out blood gushed out of the tiny hole.
but patrick was there to hold tissue over it till it stopped bleeding and then i put a band aid on it.
then we left my house at like midnight to go back to detroit. and i hung out there till sunday night. (see pics a few entries below)
we had fun. we went to lord and taylor in the 12 oaks mall to see if we could find him a super cool hat. no luck.
so he bought me a baileys shake from the haagen dasz shop. yum! there was also a trip to meijer and then ihop with kyle. we had fun
this week has been hectic. work is beyond crazy. BEYOND!
36 days till marilyn at the palace. IM SO EXCITED!
we went to the dollar on wednesday and had fun. kinda. the music sucked but ... yeah. we made our own fun. ill of course post pics when i get them from desi. woohoo!! im so boring right now.
i slept 12 hours last night to make up for not getting any sleep wed night. that was nice. but i had a crazy dream about a plane crashing into my little brothers school and killing both of them. it was so bad i woke up crying AND begged my dad not to send them to school today. he didnt go along with that.
so i called mr k today at 11am to make sure everything was ok. it was. mr k was one of my teachers in high school who i still email and talk to. hes super cool!!
he said all was a-ok! but im sure he thought i was nuts. and im keeping a close watch on the news online to make sure nothing happens. but they are out of school in like an hour and a half so im staying cool.
i know - im psycho!
haha.
this weekend is:
patricks tonight - after freaking silver bells. so annoying.
then tomorrow desi and i are going with amber to grand rapids to look for wedding dresses.
then desi and i are probably going to hang out with shane.
then its sunday which ='s SLEEP ALL DAY!!!
seems like there was something else i wanted to tell you about..
hmm i cant remember.
james left a great comment in my journal earlier -
"The only problem is you're going to be speaking in Crystal, and only one person actually understands the language. Everyone else is on the outside looking in tryin to crack the code, but people being people will be afraid to take the leap and make an assumption and expose themselves to being wrong. So instead we will think our little thoughts and hope our little hopes and nod our heads and smile and take no chances because God forbid we be wrong."
good point.
im wearing the comfiest clothes today
but im going to freeze to death at silver bells.
silver bells. what a silly name. its not even december. but ugh. christmas shopping. ew! dont even get me started on my money problems.
you know the never ending ones.
i am in possesion of mechanical animals. SO GOOD! seriously. you need to listen to it. coma white, last day on earth, and speed of pain. AMAZING!
oh yes oh yes oh yes.
i havent even touched the other 5 cd's i bought last week. im just listening to this nonstop. i even put on my makeup in the morning with headphones on. awww yeah.
weighed myself last night - 97. sweet!
he had the greatest dream last night --
I had a dream that I was naked and sitting in some sort of canvass chair in a large room
large enough that that I couldn't see the walls they were past the horizon on all sides
the room was a white ceiling and a tan carpet like a room in a house except all I could see
is floor and ceiling the room was lit up with white light there was a lamp next to the chair
with a red lamp shade on it upside down
it was very clean there was no smell
an attractive girl with black hair red lips and three arms
two on the left one on the right no clothes
laid pieces of glass on either of my thighs wall squatting between my legs
she angled there tips into my skin ever so slightly
then her head whipped back she sighed in an animal way
her head came down and she spit blood into my face
and pushed the glass under my skin so you could see it underneath
I woke up in a swimming pool
then woke up in my bed
well that and the slingshot throwing dogs into the air dream where there was invisible razorblade wire that were mangling the dogs.
DREAM RECORDER!! i dont think its impossible.
i should seriously work on that.
anyhow. mr smallville called me last saturday night. i didnt see or hear it ring and he didnt leave a vmail.
weirdo!
desi made me a card like hand made the whole thing
it is awesome
like something you would buy in a store.
its hanging on my cube wall.
it says --
"Crystal VanNorman -
Just a little note to tell you how much I appreciate you! Im so glad we have become such good friends these past couple of months. You are the best and thank you for always putting up with my bullshit! i (heart) you
Love, Desi Jo"
its cute. trust me on that one.
im hungry. i had some mixed nuts and like 2 slices of cheese for lunch yesterday. and then some saurcraut(sp?) and a package of blue rasberry gushers for dinner last night.
and nothing yet today. its 2pm. woohoo! doin good crystal.
i like this no eating thing. i lose weight really fast. it rocks.
no need for my Adipex, Phentermine, Bontril, Meridia, Phendimetrazine, or Tenuate pills.
oh im funny.
REQUIEM STYLE!
what else should we talk about? im feeling really boring and tired
so boring and tired actually. not really just so.
or both. what???
i am wearing a combo of two perfumes today and it has this smell.
like amazingness. i move and smell it every now and then. its a yummy body spray all over and then i put the expensive stuff on just my wrists and neck.
it worked out perfectly
and there is a slight hint of my vanilla victorias secret lotion and baby oil i put on my legs when i take a bath b/c it makes them soft.
vickies has the greatest lotion in all the land. its so good.
but anyhow i just wanted you to know i smell like the blue sky on a spring day.
oh yes - JUST like that.
if you dont know what that smells like
find me.
east lansing
hagadorn
eyde building
suite 320
cube 377
ill let you smell me
btw this will be my last entry b/c all of the stalkers are going to come out of the woodwork and murder me
oh well. its for the best i suppose.
just like untied shoelaces and runs in panthose
1. you can take the shoes off easier
and
2. you get new pantyhose
did i just lose you?
figures.
have a good weekend