perfection haunts me

Oct 16, 2003 07:54

welcome to thursday.so this little survey i have induced two entrys below has really gotten some response. ill have to come up with another one ( Read more... )

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bartski October 18 2003, 21:47:49 UTC
Meaning, I dunno, right now I'm uninspired. Sure I've got a few ideas floating around my head that might be interesting to shoot, but they aren't strong enough of a drive for me to get up and go get'em. It seems everyday I'm just stressing over college assignments, throwing stuff out there that will please others for the top grade I need so I can get my scholarship money. I'm not really doing a whole lot of what I'd really like to do, and at my own pace.

Its hard to explain. Basically I've been doing a lot of sitting around and thinking, and not enough going out and doing, if that makes any sense at all.

So, yeah that's what I mean about muses. It seems I'm waiting for something to modivate me to start working.

Fuck it, you know what? Screw the grade. Why should I stress over assignments I don't like? Sure it'd be great if I learn how to stop stressing and work more, but its been inherent in my personality that I can't stand doing work I don't have a passion in, and know that I can do well. I just can't bullshit my papers like a lot of people can. Why should I let that stop me from the stuff I really care about? Its not the grades that will get me the jobs after I graduate, its the quality of my work in my portfolio. I can't be so much of a fucking pussy. I know what I want, I just should go out and get it.

K, nuff said. Starting to sound like Dawson. ;0)

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madebymrmanson October 20 2003, 06:39:53 UTC
got it ;-)

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