bruised clouds on shattered snow
have you ever thought your side of the highway at night was prettier because you had the red taillights to look at?
ive thought that since i was 4. or maybe earlier. i always new red was prettier than the white headlights coming at me. it was probably around 4 that i discovered that it was the color red.
anyhow. im trying to get it all out of my system because i havent been able to walk to well these past few days. nor have i been able to concentrate on anything.
im not sure why. and the reasons i come up with are not such good reasons.
my life is just stressful in general i think. at least to me it is.
today is a good day though. i have the requiem for a dream soundtrack. life really doesnt get any better.
plus i have coffee. and it is yum yum.
speaking of yum yums - yesterday was interesting. i didnt take an official lunch break but i did leave after tim and erik were gone. for some yum yums - but i didnt really eat anything. i just basically got outta here for half an hour b/c the morning was so stressful. so that was nice
uh oh...
You're Heroin! You are incredibly addictive, but
relaxing and fuzzy. Like a warm sweater. You
make life a series of delicious daydreams with
maybe a little puking. People will do anything
to be around you. And then you kill them.
Asshole.
What Drug Are You? [Drugs Are Bad]
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thats no good. someone told me recently that heroin makes you feel wonderful AND THEN its the worst hell of your life over and over and over again and then you go to sleep and wake up and all you want to do is that. again and again and again.
doesnt sound like too much fun.
agreed?
so dont do it. take a yoga class instead or go on a bike ride. healthy happy things.
i was helping my 11 year old brother with his math homework night before last.
i didnt realize it was so difficult - or im totally stupid. probably the latter.
it was all find the mean, median and mode of this set of numbers and then make a line graph, pie graph, and then divide by two and DOUBLE IT!! hah.
but really - its not that hard, its just sooo time consuming.
so he got these worksheets done that he had to do b/c he was not at school thurs or friday b/c of his heart surgery - and wanted me to check them over.
sure no problem i say. so i start check over these 3 worksheets front and back.
it took me like 40 mins. but he only had like 3 wrong so we went over those and all was good.
god i hate school.
work today is going to be so busy. i have way too much to do. but i should be able to get it done if i concentrate, which should be easier.
i chilled out pretty much by myself last night.
i had this cd so i drove around listening to it for like an hour - to get out of the house and all that.
i freaked myself out. its kinda scary music to be listening to at night while driving by ones self. but i survived.
the music, however, is BRILLIANT! thank you clint mansell. so fucking amazing.
i just realized that i havent talked to my mom in like a week. she called to "check in" like a week ago. or maybe it was 5 days ago. hah.
sad.
hi, im your mom -- really sorry that i missed all of your birthdays, your high school graduation, your first period, boys talks, sex questions, shopping trips, saying no to makeup and shaving your legs, and cooking. your dad did fine at it all anyhow im sure.
but you know, the diet pills, they told me to do it. i HAD to leave.
but i was just calling to check in. ill call you this weekend.
great, thanks mom. you do that.
ahh.... thats funny. fucked up, but funny.
since we are talking about family -- i taught my grandpa how to attach a file to email last week. it only took 2 hours! not bad for an 84 year old guy eh?
hes the cutest little grandpa ever!
ahhh... well i suppose i had better start my day.
sorry if this entry was dumb - im just venting about random stuff that comes up in my little head. rolling round and round and asking to be released into livejournal land.
i was going to make a list of something but i cant really think of anything right now.
my creativeness has gone to shit thanks to lack of sleep, not eating in 32 hours(check: make that 36 hours and counting), coffee and my mind being pulled in 45 billion directions at once thinking about other things(see: work, family, school planning, life in general etc etc etc)
hunger pains come in the morning and are gone for the day i have noticed.
no need to be alarmed. im just not hungry so much.
yipes. okay im outta.
everyone have a wonderfully dramatic and vapor rising blue around my veins in transparent light kinda of wednesday.
the closer they become, we wonder if they are truly magnetic or merely transparent objects that take our interest when everything else is lacking
ive thought that since i was 4. or maybe earlier. i always new red was prettier than the white headlights coming at me. it was probably around 4 that i discovered that it was the color red.
anyhow. im trying to get it all out of my system because i havent been able to walk to well these past few days. nor have i been able to concentrate on anything.
im not sure why. and the reasons i come up with are not such good reasons.
my life is just stressful in general i think. at least to me it is.
today is a good day though. i have the requiem for a dream soundtrack. life really doesnt get any better.
plus i have coffee. and it is yum yum.
speaking of yum yums - yesterday was interesting. i didnt take an official lunch break but i did leave after tim and erik were gone. for some yum yums - but i didnt really eat anything. i just basically got outta here for half an hour b/c the morning was so stressful. so that was nice
uh oh...
You're Heroin! You are incredibly addictive, but
relaxing and fuzzy. Like a warm sweater. You
make life a series of delicious daydreams with
maybe a little puking. People will do anything
to be around you. And then you kill them.
Asshole.
What Drug Are You? [Drugs Are Bad]
brought to you by Quizilla
thats no good. someone told me recently that heroin makes you feel wonderful AND THEN its the worst hell of your life over and over and over again and then you go to sleep and wake up and all you want to do is that. again and again and again.
doesnt sound like too much fun.
agreed?
so dont do it. take a yoga class instead or go on a bike ride. healthy happy things.
i was helping my 11 year old brother with his math homework night before last.
i didnt realize it was so difficult - or im totally stupid. probably the latter.
it was all find the mean, median and mode of this set of numbers and then make a line graph, pie graph, and then divide by two and DOUBLE IT!! hah.
but really - its not that hard, its just sooo time consuming.
so he got these worksheets done that he had to do b/c he was not at school thurs or friday b/c of his heart surgery - and wanted me to check them over.
sure no problem i say. so i start check over these 3 worksheets front and back.
it took me like 40 mins. but he only had like 3 wrong so we went over those and all was good.
god i hate school.
work today is going to be so busy. i have way too much to do. but i should be able to get it done if i concentrate, which should be easier.
i chilled out pretty much by myself last night.
i had this cd so i drove around listening to it for like an hour - to get out of the house and all that.
i freaked myself out. its kinda scary music to be listening to at night while driving by ones self. but i survived.
the music, however, is BRILLIANT! thank you clint mansell. so fucking amazing.
i just realized that i havent talked to my mom in like a week. she called to "check in" like a week ago. or maybe it was 5 days ago. hah.
sad.
hi, im your mom -- really sorry that i missed all of your birthdays, your high school graduation, your first period, boys talks, sex questions, shopping trips, saying no to makeup and shaving your legs, and cooking. your dad did fine at it all anyhow im sure.
but you know, the diet pills, they told me to do it. i HAD to leave.
but i was just calling to check in. ill call you this weekend.
great, thanks mom. you do that.
ahh.... thats funny. fucked up, but funny.
since we are talking about family -- i taught my grandpa how to attach a file to email last week. it only took 2 hours! not bad for an 84 year old guy eh?
hes the cutest little grandpa ever!
ahhh... well i suppose i had better start my day.
sorry if this entry was dumb - im just venting about random stuff that comes up in my little head. rolling round and round and asking to be released into livejournal land.
i was going to make a list of something but i cant really think of anything right now.
my creativeness has gone to shit thanks to lack of sleep, not eating in 32 hours(check: make that 36 hours and counting), coffee and my mind being pulled in 45 billion directions at once thinking about other things(see: work, family, school planning, life in general etc etc etc)
hunger pains come in the morning and are gone for the day i have noticed.
no need to be alarmed. im just not hungry so much.
yipes. okay im outta.
everyone have a wonderfully dramatic and vapor rising blue around my veins in transparent light kinda of wednesday.
the closer they become, we wonder if they are truly magnetic or merely transparent objects that take our interest when everything else is lacking