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I used to be so good with words. I could bust out a great vocabulary. Just speak well overall. My essays would have a flair for words. I feel I have lost all that over university. I think I lost knowledage. I actually feel less intelligent then when I started. I once dreamed of being and artist, thinking and creating my whole life. Now I don't think I have anything worth doing. No thought worth putting down or original work worth seeing. It is like i just bullshitted my last few years to get through. I almost want to settle for some desk job which doesn't matter. I once dreamed of revolution and change to the world, I even had a few people who believed in me when it came to that. No I am looking to start the drudgery of everyday life.