One of those crazy, in-depth posts that shouldn't happen but has to be there for my own assurance.
Something struck me when I came home tonight. Looking up at the stars that lit a clear black sky, it felt funny. It made me think of all the not-so-familiar faces I grew, connected, hated, and couldn't get enough of (mainly during my adolescence/high school life). I feel tonight as a premonition for the next chapter in my life. Even though, I've been at this "new life" for a while already, honestly, I feel like I can really let go of a past that was just a part of me. I had everything backwards and inside out. I thought my past was who I am today.
I've come to this point because I feel like tonight has brought me to closure on this section of my life. The outcome has been a mix of a few scars, a new found love and hope. But most of all, a sense of peace. Maybe not all of my friends came out the same as me, but I wish them all the best and as for my brothers, well, only love, respect, and perseverance will hold our future.
These stars that lie in the sky, are all faded memories that every mistake or choice I made, I couldn't have made it without them. I'm about to break down as I type each word, but for the best. I guess maybe I don't really pay attention to the stars as often as I did before on those nights with those other experiences. It's been almost a year since I've really looked up above.
This is it. I have a pretty good idea of what it takes to be successful, not just in others' eyes, but in my own. It's just a trip to look back within this book and to close it and put it down. It's not a decision on my behalf. More of a natural occurrence like when night falls and the sun rises the next morning. A turning point within my heart.
This is the story of teenage angst put to rest. I know where everyone within the past few years set place in my heart now. Like paintings or pictures set on the wall in a house, like the stars that sit brightly amongst the blackest space, so do the faces, the memories, the experiences in my heart forming a collage. Now that the stars have their meaning in the sky to me, I wonder what the white clouds that afloat a blue sky will mean to me (if it doesn't rain) tomorrow. It's getting too late and I work tomorrow.
To be continued...
I've come to this point because I feel like tonight has brought me to closure on this section of my life. The outcome has been a mix of a few scars, a new found love and hope. But most of all, a sense of peace. Maybe not all of my friends came out the same as me, but I wish them all the best and as for my brothers, well, only love, respect, and perseverance will hold our future.
These stars that lie in the sky, are all faded memories that every mistake or choice I made, I couldn't have made it without them. I'm about to break down as I type each word, but for the best. I guess maybe I don't really pay attention to the stars as often as I did before on those nights with those other experiences. It's been almost a year since I've really looked up above.
This is it. I have a pretty good idea of what it takes to be successful, not just in others' eyes, but in my own. It's just a trip to look back within this book and to close it and put it down. It's not a decision on my behalf. More of a natural occurrence like when night falls and the sun rises the next morning. A turning point within my heart.
This is the story of teenage angst put to rest. I know where everyone within the past few years set place in my heart now. Like paintings or pictures set on the wall in a house, like the stars that sit brightly amongst the blackest space, so do the faces, the memories, the experiences in my heart forming a collage. Now that the stars have their meaning in the sky to me, I wonder what the white clouds that afloat a blue sky will mean to me (if it doesn't rain) tomorrow. It's getting too late and I work tomorrow.
To be continued...