When will this life I live get any better
What is wrong with me, why must I live this life that I do. Did i piss someone of in another life if I did what could have been so bad to deserve this life I have been given now. My friends are mad at me because I'm going to join the armed forces and will probably be sent to Iraq. I feel like it is my duty to my country my father and his father both fought in wars for this country I feel it is online right that I do the same. Though many people think we are not justified in this war but wether we are justified or not we should still support out troops. I also feel if I can help bring our troops home any faster then I'm gonna do it many of them have done there time and then some but they cannot leave. I just wish we could get more support from our own, do you people realize that your countrymen are over there giving there lives to fight the evils of injustice just like our forefathers did. This isn't the first war and it won't be the last so give all the support you can to you soldiers all over the world. My dad was shipped off to vietnam at the age of 18 he would wake up at night in a cold sweet from the nightmares he would relive at night when he went to sleep. He saw men killed he killed men some of the men he saw dide were people he had gone through basic training with. I doubt all of the people opposing this war know what it is like to see your fellow soldiers falling one by one right next to you and wondering "will i be next" i can only imagine how terrifying that could be. Lucky my dad came home safe and was able to be a father to me and my little brother. He lived his left the best he could until the day that he was lost to us by a disease called pancreatic cancer. He was taken form me when after all my life we had never really been that close but just when we started to get to share the same intrests and really bond he was taken from me shortly thereafter he was supposed to take me to get my permit but he was never able to do so. I think the reason for the way i live my life now is so that he can finally be proud of me. For the longest time I had tried to live my life the way he lived his to try to better understand what was inside his head and why he acted the way he did but I guess there is no way i will ever really know. I can't seem to find a decent woman to spend my life experiences I mean don't get me wrong I have some female friends and they are awesome they really help me when I get down in the dumps, But i need someone to spend the rest of my life with it seems all my friends have found their special someone but since I had my heart shattered to a million pieces by two exgirlfriends I have yet to have a decent relationship I just hope that someday i will find that special woman that was meant for me and hopefully I can find her soon.