What is the point of being alive when you feel dead

[maddogmatth]

What is the point of it all there is so much hardship in the world, and yet if you take yourself out of the equation everyone wants to say you took the easy way out or you're a pussy. But maybe just maybe you have used your brain for once. I mean does anyone really have control of anything there are so many variables and there are always people

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[hopewhisper]

You don't think I've thought these exact same things? My mom is going through bad shit, being verbally abuse everyday by the man she loves and his father. But I do understand why she doesn't leave, She does love him, she keeps hoping that he will stop drinking and everythign will be okay. You are going through bad things, and believe it or not, so am I. Confusing, weird things that I can't even talk to anyone else. And as you're reading this, I bet you know what I'm talking about. It doesn't have to do with my father. That's just another horrible thing I went through and it still affects me and fucks things up for me. And now you're offline so I don't even know if you are going to read this. And talking to people at work made me realize something, everyone has gone through something terrible. Everyones' life's suck. I don't know how they deal with it, I don't know how I do. But I do. I know there is terror and dangers in this world. I've actually started thinking, as I'm in a car, "Oh, what happened to that guy? Is he in so much debt because of something? Because of drugs? His girlfriend's drugs?' Or "I wonder what has happened to that old lady...Is all her friends passed awawy before her? Did she have to watch her kids die before her? How much death has she seen?" I hate thinking these things, but they could be true. And hat if they are? I think it's worth it for the happy moments in your life. Nit perfect, but happy, carefree. And tghey do happened. Mayeb not all the time, but you can't deny you had a little fun yesterday hanging out with me and my family. You can't. I know it for a fact. And I think, maybe wthe reasons we suffer through so much is to be happy. To be thankful for those moments of worryliness. You're not the only one to think of this. You're not the only one who wants to die or still does. If you were, humanity would have been gone long before us and so would I.