you dont bring me anything but down when you come around
i'm so tired of the weather going back and forth. i guess its only april so i shouldnt be so expectant but i'm ready for summer to be here.
things seem a little apathetic lately. i guess i'm just feeling tired and overwhelmed. and sad that there is no time to do all the little artsy things i used to be able to do before i had children. i used to write books and books of poetry, and draw and hemp and collage and do other misc. forms of art. and talk on the phone for hours and go out whenever i want. there is just no time anymore. barely even time to shower much less read a book. and the saddest thing of all, is that i'm struggling with going to the one person who can solve the anxiety and make me complete. its like God made us this way, where we resist, but we are still supposed to fight the urge. pray that my heart will open and i will let Him in once again.
the anxiety is just overwhelming, and some days i just wanna be a kid again.
guess its worth it though, i've never smiled and laughed so much in my life... they're just in the other room right now so i can have my little moment.
back to life as a mom.
the best choice i ever made.
i just hope i can be more brave tomorrow.
e
things seem a little apathetic lately. i guess i'm just feeling tired and overwhelmed. and sad that there is no time to do all the little artsy things i used to be able to do before i had children. i used to write books and books of poetry, and draw and hemp and collage and do other misc. forms of art. and talk on the phone for hours and go out whenever i want. there is just no time anymore. barely even time to shower much less read a book. and the saddest thing of all, is that i'm struggling with going to the one person who can solve the anxiety and make me complete. its like God made us this way, where we resist, but we are still supposed to fight the urge. pray that my heart will open and i will let Him in once again.
the anxiety is just overwhelming, and some days i just wanna be a kid again.
guess its worth it though, i've never smiled and laughed so much in my life... they're just in the other room right now so i can have my little moment.
back to life as a mom.
the best choice i ever made.
i just hope i can be more brave tomorrow.
e