Apr 16, 2006 06:44
My mom found my stepfather Ben dead yesterday morning. We're not sure what time he died exactly. My brother and sister-in-law got there after 12 Friday night. Mom and Ben had waited up for them, and they all went to bed late. I'm just so thankful they were there. If Mom had been alone when she found him...
Anyway, she was a mess when we got over there, and by that time I was, too. Then everyone started arriving and we had calls to make and arrangements to see to. I'm sure it won't really hit her until it's all over.
I'm not sure it's really hit me yet. All day yesterday, I'd catch myself thinking "If Ben were here, he'd be doing that", or "He'd be taking a nap right now". It's like losing Daddy all over again.
I'm feeling drained this morning. We didn't get back here until nearly 11 last night, and I worked on some pictures of Ben for the viewing tomorrow night, and got our clothes together for tomorrow. My mind is all crazy trying to remember everything.
We'll be staying at Mom's tonight - - the funeral home thing doesn't end until 9pm, and the funeral is Monday at 2pm. I won't be online again until we get back Monday night. And after Robbie and Chrisey go home, we'll be staying with Mom, at least until she can walk again, but probably longer.
Just pray for us and think good thoughts, especially for Mom. I'm really worried about how she's going to deal with this.
mom,
rl,
ben