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It occurred to me just now that I haven't been dreaming all that much lately. My bed is uncomfortable and lonely when Melaine isn't in it and when she is I sleep like a baby but.. My job is easy and it's nice to be making money but at the end of the day I'm so restless and fidgety that I can't even sit in class for 2 hours... I've been psyching myself out too, building up to wanting to have a wonderful wonderful dream and still...
I dream so much when I'm awake. I have all the opportunity in the world to imagine how much better my life is going to be just around the bend, just after the next 3/4/7/10 years... All I want to do is sleep through it, I want to see the end of it and not have to worry about all this crap in the middle. I hate this feeling of doing nothing, not being proactive... atrophy. I know that to succeed in life you have to have a plan, you have to have a means for your ends to be good ones. I just hate this character building bullcrap, it's like I can hear the jeopardy theme for 9 hours straight out of every day.
In the past 7 months I've gained from my job:
Knowledge and insight about the quality of work that goes into Audi's cars
An understanding that the more complex you make anything the more you'll have to pay to keep it running.
Intimate knowledge of Volkswagen/Audi part numbers like 078 121 113F - That's a thermostat for a Biturbo V6 which comes in either an A6 or an S4 from '00-'02. I've got loads of those stored away in my head.
20 FUCKING POUNDS! That's right, sitting at a desk all day has made me fatter. I need to put a wheel on the stupid fucking bike I got but first I need to paint it because it is PINK and I hate pink but oh wait I don't have the time to paint the bike because I'm in school and I work full time.
Thank you 2Bennett.
I'm thankful as hell to have a job in this time of economic downturn but really, what the fuck?
This coming vacation I'm taking will be super good for me. I'll spend a whole day just hiking around Joshua tree national park and then I'll see my grandparents. Good tunes and healthy food will be my fuel down I-5 along with the musings of my co-pilot. Coachella here I come!
Gods, please let me dream tonight. Really.
I dream so much when I'm awake. I have all the opportunity in the world to imagine how much better my life is going to be just around the bend, just after the next 3/4/7/10 years... All I want to do is sleep through it, I want to see the end of it and not have to worry about all this crap in the middle. I hate this feeling of doing nothing, not being proactive... atrophy. I know that to succeed in life you have to have a plan, you have to have a means for your ends to be good ones. I just hate this character building bullcrap, it's like I can hear the jeopardy theme for 9 hours straight out of every day.
In the past 7 months I've gained from my job:
Knowledge and insight about the quality of work that goes into Audi's cars
An understanding that the more complex you make anything the more you'll have to pay to keep it running.
Intimate knowledge of Volkswagen/Audi part numbers like 078 121 113F - That's a thermostat for a Biturbo V6 which comes in either an A6 or an S4 from '00-'02. I've got loads of those stored away in my head.
20 FUCKING POUNDS! That's right, sitting at a desk all day has made me fatter. I need to put a wheel on the stupid fucking bike I got but first I need to paint it because it is PINK and I hate pink but oh wait I don't have the time to paint the bike because I'm in school and I work full time.
Thank you 2Bennett.
I'm thankful as hell to have a job in this time of economic downturn but really, what the fuck?
This coming vacation I'm taking will be super good for me. I'll spend a whole day just hiking around Joshua tree national park and then I'll see my grandparents. Good tunes and healthy food will be my fuel down I-5 along with the musings of my co-pilot. Coachella here I come!
Gods, please let me dream tonight. Really.