I'll Be Chapter 5
Title: I'll Be (5/30)
Rating: NC-17
Pairings: Benji/Joel
Summary: Benji Madden is turning 23 today. He is starting a new job on Monday at the Lakeview County School System as the Administrator for all the buses, routes, and busdrivers in the county. Life is finally getting on track and he is just as happy not having to put up with the bother of a relationship. However, tonight, his friends have set him up with a very special birthday surprise...Joel Combs is turning 18 today. He is the reigning Chess Champion in the state of Maryland, three years running now, soon to be four. All his life, he has never fit in and is a terminal geek. When two of the most popular guys in his senior class offer to help him celebrate his birthday, how could he reisist...As the paths of these two men cross unexpectedly, will they be just another love suicide, never revealing their depth? Or will they be able to see that they belong together...and become the greatest fan of each other's life? (AU and Twins are not related...so no guilt, lol)
And cue the Disclaimer: I don’t own or know the Madden twins. This never happened. I have not, did not, and will never ever make any money off of this. The story is purely a work of fiction.
Notes: This is in answer to a song fic challenge issued by luvmeanspain for Edwin McCain's "I'll Be". Therefore, it is likewise respectfully dedicated to her as well. I hope that she and all of you, enjoy reading as much as I did writing it.
Chapter 1 I'll Be Your Crying Shoulder part 1
Chapter 1 I'll Be Your Crying Shoulder part 2
Chapter 2 The Strands In Your Eyes That Color Them Wonderful
Chapter 3 Stop Me And Steal My Breath
Chapter 4 Emeralds From Mountains
Chapter 5 - Thrust Toward The Sky
Slowly, Joel opened his eyes. Sun danced with its rays throughout his room, as he yawned. Stretching like a cat, he smiled as he thought about the previous night. Benji had let him take a shower, helped him out with it, sort of, and lent him some clothes, then he brought him back to the house. Joel thought about their fight after they had arrived and their promise to think things over and sleep on it. The only thing he did not like, was that Benji hadn’t kissed him good night. Other than that one part, the evening had been fantastic, even with the upheaval in his emotions and nearly catastrophic communication breakdown.
Benji had worked with him; recognized their error in verbalizing what they wanted and thought. It was this that caused Joel smile the most. He had always felt it wasn’t the good things that make or break a relationship, but rather how well you could handle the bad stuff that really counts. In chess, it was better to ‘push’, move your pawn forward according to your own design and plan, than to be ‘forced’ to move because you have no other choices. Benji had chosen to ‘push’ by taking the initiative tonight and recognizing they needed to evolve, fix what wasn’t working. That proved to Joel that, along with probably being a formidable opponent in chess too, Benji was a good fit for Joel as a friend…and possibly partner, significant other. Just thinking that made Joel’s heart rate increase as tendrils of pleasure wrapped around his body.
Closing his eyes briefly, he remembered everything about his time with Benji. Licking his lips, he thought about the hot, wanton taste of Benji’s mouth. Joel had thought no kiss could top the first one he had gotten on his birthday. He now knew, though the first was special and one he’d never forget, it was just the tip of the ice-burg. Kissing Benji had been electric and sensual. Just thinking about it, made him ache. Languidly, he moved his hand down his bare chest. He remembered how it had felt to be pressed up against Benji’s chest, hard. Then in the shower, Benji had rubbed both their aching cocks together, making it feel so damn good. Slipping his hand further down, Joel gently touched his morning hard on through his boxers. He wasn’t surprised to note some moisture there, already feeling the effects of his thoughts about the previous evening.
Groaning softly, Joel decided to take the matter in hand. He threw back the covers, took off his boxers and tossed them on the floor. Grabbing the other two pillows he always tossed off the bed, he put them behind his head, elevating his body so he could watch. He reached into his bedside table, and took out his favorite hand lotion, amaretto scented with a hit of rose hips. It had been a ‘gift’ to his Mom a while back from one of her friends. She didn’t want it, so Joel offered to dispose of it for her: he put it in his room.
Pouring some on his hand, he warmed it up in his palm while he looked at his hard cock. The head was swelled with a bit of precum on it from his earlier thoughts. Rubbing the crown with his index finger from his other hand, he brought the moisture up to his lips and licked. The salty, bitter taste made his flat stomach contract pleasurably as he wondered what Benji might taste like. Sucking his finger into his mouth, a vision of Benji on his knees, sucking his cock flashed into his mind.
“Uh!” Joel gasp out, his body on fire. He could just see Benji in his mind’s eye looking up at him from his knees and saying what he had said before he left Joel’s house last night.
“You are damn sexy when you are mad at me, baby.”
Joel’s body throbbed in response to that memory turned fantasy. Deep inside his body he could feel a pulsing that seemed more prominent now. Ever since Benji had taken his virginity that night, masturbating had taken on a new level of excitement. Joel had surfed numerous bondage sites and was now certain it was something he was into. There were other things he saw there: toys and leather outfits that he wanted to try some day. It sparked his imagination and made his body respond like nothing else…except Benji himself. Putting those images and his Benji together, made it almost impossible for Joel to last very long when he decided to have these impromptu wanking sessions.
“Benji,” He moaned as he watched his lotioned fingers trailing down his granite hard prick. Thoroughly coating his cock with his fingers, he traced each vein lovingly. The feather-light touches caused him to writhe and moan. Unable to take his own teasing any more, he bucked up into his palm as he tightened it around his stiff dick. Using his other hand, he pinched his nipples then slipped the hand down between his legs and lightly rolled his balls. His mind recalled the amazing feeling of being penetrated. The more he remembered it, the more he wanted to feel it again.
Unable to resist his urges, Joel spread his legs, his body already shaking with lust. Slicking his dry fingers up with a mixture of lotion and precum, he teased past his perineum until he was pressing, circling his finger tip at his entrance. The tiny jolts of pleasure went straight through his cock. Before Benji, he had enjoyed this every once in a while, but it wasn‘t an every time kind of thing for him. He knew he wanted guys, not girls, but he just hadn’t thought to exploit this sensitive area of his body to the fullest, only rarely using three fingers for penetration if at all.
Now, he fucking craved it.
Taking a deep breath, he thrust his index finger inside. “Fuck!”
Joel liked being rough. It wasn’t tame; there was no order; unlike his daily life. Adding his middle finger to his index finger, he thrust in again without preamble, quickly adding his third finger. The little bit of pain was erased by the heat and immense pleasure. He continued to lightly stroke his cock which was curling back up into his tummy. Every time Joel had fingered his ass like this since his birthday, his dick had gotten so much harder. It arced up like it was trying to curve into his belly button when he had his legs spread like this and his body elevated. He moved his hips slowly, feeling the head of his damp dick, wetly kissing his taut abdomen.
“So…good,” Joel panted softly, his ass clenching, trying to force his intruding fingers to exit, making it that much better for him. Spreading his legs as far as he could, he began to search for his prostate. He knew when he hit that, this would be explosive; almost as good as it had been with Benji. There had been a couple times he had practically cum just from rubbing that spot, barely stroking his cock at all. After angling his wrist a different way, he finally found it.
“Benji!” He yelped and let go of his cock. Rubbing and tapping that spot inside his body, he watched his dick pulse and twitch in response. His cock was so bowed up now, just by thrusting his hips, the head got a good bit of friction from his stomach. Joel touched his sweet spot on the dorsal nerve just behind the head, and started circling it with his index finger, while he continued to thrust his other hand into his tight sheath, banging his male g-spot. Sweat poured off his body as he teetered on the edge, determined to keep himself there for as long as he could. Unfortunately, it wasn’t very long.
The point of no return had been passed, so he grabbed his cock and stroked hard, now circling the swollen head with his thumb.
“Benji, I…I want you!” Joel groaned loudly. Hitting his spot just right, his hips shot off the bed as he thrust toward the sky and into his palm. The intensity was overwhelming and he started to cum. “BENJI!”
A long hot spurt of semen hit his stomach and splattered up on to his chest. Joel rode his fingers and hand, able to feel his muscles within bearing down on his fingers as his cock contracted repeatedly. In his mind, all he could see was Benji’s face. He was so very beautiful to Joel. Looking into those eyes in his mind, Joel scaled to the very top of desire’s mountain and shouted Benji’s name one last time as the nirvana crescendoed in its end.
After a while, Joel’s heart rate finally began to slow. Withdrawing his fingers, he looked at the mess he had made on his chest and abdomen. He took a deep breath and decided going for a shower would be the best solution. Reaching down, he wiped his hands off on his boxers and stood. Still wiping cum from his nude body, he walked toward the main bathroom.
“Joel, sweetheart! You’re awake…oops!” His mother put her hand over her mouth as she realized her son was nude. “I guess you didn’t realize we were home.”
“MOM!” Joel yelled and ducked into the bathroom, mortified.
“Honey, I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to startle you,” She said through the door. “I would have told you as soon as we got in this morning but you seemed to be having some special alone time and I wanted to give you a chance to finish.”
Joel closed his eyes and leaned against the door. His Mom had known he was jacking off! He couldn’t remember a time he had felt more humiliated. “Then why didn’t you give me a chance to get into the bathroom?”
“Well, I heard the door open and assumed you had finished. It never occurred to me you wouldn’t be dressed, hon. I had no idea you had a pension for ambling about in the nude when we are gone,” His Mom replied honestly, not at all offended by any part of the current situation. “You always seemed so modest since you hit puberty.”
Joel groaned. “Can we please end this conversation? I wanna take a shower and drown myself.”
His Mother chuckled. “Of course. Your Father and I are doing some packing so when you finish, come downstairs. We have big news.”
“Great,” Joel said sarcastically. “Be down ASAP.”
“Take your time,” His Mom called, missing Joel’s tone of voice. “Love you, sweetheart.”
Surely the woman didn’t expect him to respond to that covered in his own cum? Searching for an alternative, Joel seized the first one he came too. “Um…ditto!”
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“Tony you have completely missed the fucking point!” Benji yelled at his best friend as he tossed the plate of hash browns down in front of him. “Jokes are supposed to be funny. The chocolate was a pain in the ass!”
Tony snickered, grabbing the ketchup. “Don’t you mean a pain to Joseph’s ass, caused by you? Or are you a closet ‘bottom’ instead of the ‘top’ I’ve always assumed you to be Benj?”
“You are so very witty…not!” Benji huffed, sitting the eggs on the breakfast table as well. “And his name is Joel, numb-nuts.”
“Ignore him,” Paul said sympathetically to Benji. “Tony is just overly horny this morning and projecting it on you. By the way, thanks for letting us stay over on such short notice last night.”
“No problem,” Benji smiled as his friend as he sat down and started filling his plate. “When you called last night, I’d just gotten out of the shower and there was no way I was going to let you half freeze without heat all night long. Of course Tony’s way of saying thanks is to chuck my damn phone into the toilet!”
“It’s drying, got plenty of rice around it,” Tony said, indicating to Benji’s dissembled phone in the bowl of dried rice. “The rice will absorb the moisture in a couple of hours, it will be good as knew. Trust me!”
Benji looked at him.
“Actually, Benj,” Paul said between bites. “He really is telling the truth. Rice works. And if it doesn’t, I’ll make Tony buy you a new phone.”
Benji sighed and got up to check the thermostat. “I can’t believe I’ve got the heat on still and it’s nearly noon! This is the coldest fucking April we‘ve had in a long time!”
“Yeah it looks like it could fucking snow outside,” Paul shook his head, draining his glass of orange juice. “Don’t blame you for wanting to find someone to snuggle up with last night.”
“It wasn’t like that,” Benji blushed and went over to pour himself some more coffee. “We are just friends.”
“So when do we get to meet the hottie?” Tony asked, enjoying Benji’s obvious discomfort. “Since he’s just a fuckbuddy…uh, I mean friend…you gonna pass him around and let Paulie and I try him out for you? Make sure he’s good and roadworthy?”
Paul shot Tony a dark look. “You can try him out and I’ll just take up with Benji…you gigolo!”
“Don’t worry Paul,” Benji said dryly. “If he doesn’t behave around Joel and I’ll make sure you never have to worry about Tone being unfaithful…ever…again.”
“You know you sure are awfully protective of your ‘just a friend.’ And listen mofo, you can’t threaten my manhood like that!” Tony protested, grabbing his crotch. “He doesn’t take too kindly to insults.” Taking his hand from between his legs, he reached for more hash browns and Paul slapped his hand.
“Go wash your hands!” Looking at his own hand, Paul grimaced. “Now I have to as well, dammit!”
Grumbling down the hallway, Benji shook his head at the twosome just as his doorbell rang. “Wonder who that could be?”
Answering the door, his mouth fell open. “Joel!”
“Hey,” Joel said running his hand through his hair awkwardly. “Sorry to just stop by: I tried to call you but your phone kept going into your voicemail. I thought maybe the battery might have quit so I decided to just stop by and take a chance. But I can totally go if you want me to, because I don’t want to intrude. My brother Josh, remember him? He is going overseas and he left me his car for the rest of the school year. So, now I have a way to school and to come see you…if you still want me to that is and of course, I still want to see you…that’s why I stopped by here.”
Benji listened to Joel talk himself into a complete circle. His words were tripping over each other and his cheeks were a light pink. Never had Benji seen anything more adorable.
“No, it’s fine you stopped by, because I definitely want to see you too,” Benji smiled, letting him in the house. “You were sort of right about my phone battery. My phone got flushed down the toilet, literally, by the same prankster that tried to drown you in chocolate last night.”
“Oh wow, so is he still here or something?” Joel asked, taking off Benji’s jacket and handing it to him.
Benji smiled as he took his own jacket and hung on the rack beside the door. “Yes, Tony and Paul had to stay with me last night because their heater broke. They are washing their hands. Any chance you’d like some breakfast?”
Joel looked at his watch which said a quarter till noon and raised his eyebrows at Benji. “Uh, sure.”
“We eat late on Saturdays. Tony’s tradition,” Benji chuckled as Joel followed him into the dining area adjacent to the kitchen. “You can sit here beside me and Paul. That way you should be safe, mostly, from flying chocolate and the like.”
Joel laughed. “So I take it Tony is the worst of the two pranksters, huh?”
“Who the hell is talking about me?” Tony half bellowed, re-entering the room with Paul behind him, only to stop and gape. “On second thought, talk about me all you like. My name is Tony and you must be Jody.”
“Joel,” Joel corrected him and held out his hand as a gesture. “I’m the one you tried to make into human fondue.”
Tony took his pro-offered hand and looked at Benji. “Instead of yelling at me for that April Fool’s Joke, you should be thanking me, Benj. I bet he was even tastier covered in chocolate!”
Joel blushed and smiled as Benji ran his hand over his face in embarrassment. “Sit down and eat, Tony, before I decide to toss you out into the cold, cruel world with no heat!” Trying to busy himself, Benji grabbed a plate and started to fill it for Joel.
“It’s okay,” Tony shrugged, not at all contrite as he sat down. “I’ve got Paul and he is a natural heat source…so I’m good.”
“No, you aren’t,” Paul shook his head, reaching his hand toward Joel to shake his hand as well. “Benji is only threatening to toss you out. I’m staying. Joel, I’m Paul, nice to meet you.”
“Likewise,” Joel nodded as Benji sat a plate full of food in front of him. “Thanks. It looks really good.”
“Thanks,” Benji smiled warmly at Joel. “Would you like orange juice or coffee or both?”
“Coffee would be great, nothing added,” Joel returned the smile, adoration in his eyes.
“Benj is a great cook,” Tony said, his mouth half full. “But I am sure you already know that. Yep, after a night of hot, raunchy sex, you can expect a wonderful breakfast.”
“Tony!” Paul’s eyes widened.
“What?!” Tony responded. “Aw come on Paulie. You can’t tell me these two didn’t get it on at Benji’s birthday party or around there about. With a present that hot, you can’t keep it wrapped up long!”
The coffee cup Benji had just gotten out crashed to the floor. Vaguely, a memory of Tony telling him how ‘hot’ his present was that night flitted into his mind. He had forgotten that.
Joel paled and looked stricken.
Paul was very confused but he immediately picked up on the atmospheric change in the room. Attempting to diffuse the situation, he said, “Tony, Joel wasn’t at Benji’s party. And as for their sex life, that is their business, not yours.”
“Paulie,” Tony gulped some orange juice, completely missing the mood change. “Joel was Benji’s present at Sticks ‘n’ Stones. Remember? I went to check and see if they got him a good one. Evidently, they did! They are still together. So, uh, how long you been working for them, Joel?”
“You know, Benji, I just remembered something I have to do,” Joel said weakly, rising up quickly from his chair as he headed for the door fast.
“Joel, wait!”
But Joel had already rushed outside to his car and was backing out of the driveway, before Benji could get to the door.
“Damn! Was it something I said?” Tony said, draining the rest of his orange juice only to spray it all over himself and his plate when Paul smacked him in the back of the head. “Fuck! What did you do that for?”
“Tony, you have no tact!” Paul hissed, getting up to walk over to where Benji now stood, at the coat rack. “Is there anything I can do, Benj?”
Benji picked up his coat that he had taken from Joel off the rack. Joel hadn’t bothered to take it with him. Grabbing another jacket, he put it on, keeping his leather jacket in hand. Determination filled his eyes as he took his car keys. “Clean up for me, please. I’m going after Joel.”
A/N2: Hope you enjoyed it! Another chapter is coming in next two days, so you won't be left waiting long :) Let me know what you think and thanks for the rnr, people! You make this a lot of fun to do!