Please, God, make me a stone…
Its sad to think how many times I have wanted that(the title) and even sadder to think that if I had the option now to that I might still take it. 5 months to Kansas and I have managed to get somewhat girlfriend,better friends and oh yeah me an my dad being closer than never.I'm not making it any easier to leave.God I'm I bitching at the fact that my life is better? I'm horrible still does make it harder to leave and stay away though.Of course Karen and philly in general help me want to leave and stay away.Anyway you did read correctly I have a girl I'm seeing.She really cool and cute but with comes some realization that I'm not so happy with.I know it was childish and stupid to think that when I have a girlfriend or whatever I could just not tell them about my life and I guess to some extent that still true she doesn't know much just that karen is a bitch an my mom died .Still it just sucks its like the universe telling me that no matter what its a part of you and you can't escape it completely .I know this its just I hate when it thrown in my face.I know I had a horrible childhood and teenage years but I finally getting better I just like to live this part of my life now and just let go of the past(at least as much as I can).I'm know what happen to me I really dont need everyone else to know.Whatever at least I have good friends,great father and dating a girl life is pretty good now.Great now a Russia nuclear warhead going to it my house just cause.