:( that's all she wrote
that's it! i've had all i can handle. this long distance thing has been just too, too much for me to handle. between that and all the stress of searching for a job, trying to pay bills and living at home has been way too hard on me and my emotions lately. i feel like i'm constantly bouncing between happiness & depression. i just didn't know what to do anymore. so i had to make the hardest decision of my entire life.
i called dave today on his sister's cell phone (they're on vacation in florida). i've had a real hard week not being able to talk to him and all, and after 6 days, of feeling like he wasn't even in my life, i couldn't take it anymore.
so i called him and told him that i didn't think we should try any longer. i've been waiting on a ring for FAR too long and i am sick & tired of waiting on him and feeling like i'll never get married. i figure i'll be better off taking my chances elsewhere with someone who is much closer. i'll have someone who isn't long distant, and who i can see daily.
i really don't want to let on about any more of it than that, because it's our personal business. i guess we'll see if that's what we both want. it's not really what i want, but i think it just might be better. i dont think it's what he wants either, but we really didn't even get to discuss it much of course, since he's on vacation.
i just don't know anymore.
i guess we'll see what comes along.
i called dave today on his sister's cell phone (they're on vacation in florida). i've had a real hard week not being able to talk to him and all, and after 6 days, of feeling like he wasn't even in my life, i couldn't take it anymore.
so i called him and told him that i didn't think we should try any longer. i've been waiting on a ring for FAR too long and i am sick & tired of waiting on him and feeling like i'll never get married. i figure i'll be better off taking my chances elsewhere with someone who is much closer. i'll have someone who isn't long distant, and who i can see daily.
i really don't want to let on about any more of it than that, because it's our personal business. i guess we'll see if that's what we both want. it's not really what i want, but i think it just might be better. i dont think it's what he wants either, but we really didn't even get to discuss it much of course, since he's on vacation.
i just don't know anymore.
i guess we'll see what comes along.