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i'm an idiot
plain and simple
my life revolves around my control over situations
i have to understand what's going on, be able to know what i'm doing, or know how to handle it
and i can't
i can't do it all the time
i'm only attracted to girls i can't handle
girls who won't let me have any control
or girls who are attracted to other guys but will still hook up with me
so why does it happen?
why don't i look at it and go "oh, this again, get out"
i can't
i can't keep myself from wanting these girls
especially because i can't have them
but i can
in one way
i just can't get the complete whatever from them that i'm expecting
it's like i settle for less
and wonder why it blows up in my face
lately i haven't wondered
i've just let it explode and walked away
and that's where we're at now
several small fires have begun in different territories
and they're all my fault
my need for control has become a need to destory
to sit there and go "well, if i can't do anything, might as well fuck it up"
oh, and one of them is 14, did i forget to mention that?
cause i need to get outta that situation...
D
Tell us commander, what do you think?
'cos we know that you love all that power
is it on then, are we on the brink
we wish you'd all throw in the towel
we'll not fade out too soon
not in this finest hour
whistle your favorite tune
we'll send a card and flower...
plain and simple
my life revolves around my control over situations
i have to understand what's going on, be able to know what i'm doing, or know how to handle it
and i can't
i can't do it all the time
i'm only attracted to girls i can't handle
girls who won't let me have any control
or girls who are attracted to other guys but will still hook up with me
so why does it happen?
why don't i look at it and go "oh, this again, get out"
i can't
i can't keep myself from wanting these girls
especially because i can't have them
but i can
in one way
i just can't get the complete whatever from them that i'm expecting
it's like i settle for less
and wonder why it blows up in my face
lately i haven't wondered
i've just let it explode and walked away
and that's where we're at now
several small fires have begun in different territories
and they're all my fault
my need for control has become a need to destory
to sit there and go "well, if i can't do anything, might as well fuck it up"
oh, and one of them is 14, did i forget to mention that?
cause i need to get outta that situation...
D
Tell us commander, what do you think?
'cos we know that you love all that power
is it on then, are we on the brink
we wish you'd all throw in the towel
we'll not fade out too soon
not in this finest hour
whistle your favorite tune
we'll send a card and flower...