Late Night Questions
How do I deal with myself when I realize that I can lose all of my control and become everything I don't want to be?
How do I come to grips with myself, knowing that I can hurt someone I care about more than myself without even really realizing it until later? Do apologies ever take away the pain? Can love cure the wounds inflicted by unthinking bitterness, or merely salve some of the hurt?
Where is my control? Why can't I control any of my emotions that are in the slightest touched by you? How does every little thing spiral into a bigger thing? I'm failing... losing. Losing my faith in myself. How can I keep faith in myself when its my flaws and cracks that keep hurting you? Why can't I be completely selfless? Why must, no matter how hard I try, that little niggling 'what about me?' always come up? Why the fuck can't I just be the person you deserve? I have to keep trying, I only hope I'm strong enough to succee
How do I come to grips with myself, knowing that I can hurt someone I care about more than myself without even really realizing it until later? Do apologies ever take away the pain? Can love cure the wounds inflicted by unthinking bitterness, or merely salve some of the hurt?
Where is my control? Why can't I control any of my emotions that are in the slightest touched by you? How does every little thing spiral into a bigger thing? I'm failing... losing. Losing my faith in myself. How can I keep faith in myself when its my flaws and cracks that keep hurting you? Why can't I be completely selfless? Why must, no matter how hard I try, that little niggling 'what about me?' always come up? Why the fuck can't I just be the person you deserve? I have to keep trying, I only hope I'm strong enough to succee