Just some words...
Love haha
Well yes, here I am again, gawkin over some person, but this time, will it get thrown in my face like the others? I hope not. I also hope he will be working on friday. How sad is that? I still want to 'bump' into him, even though he has asked if I want to go out with him some time. Please tell me what my deal is! I can analyse people quite well, but when it comes to me, I'm just stuck. Maybe I know the answer it's just maybe I can't get over that. 'That' is the fear, the anxiety of seeing him. I suppose I'm worried that when he looks at me this time he wont like me, he could be another me, this time it might come around. I kick myself now, I wish I had said, 'Yes, I would love to do something later', but I didn't, I just need to see him on friday before America, and I know I will try my best to act upon how I feel, and I know I will be smilling on the way to the airport, but if he's not there on friday, I don't know how I will react. I am still hoping for a text from him, just saying would you like to go out tonight? I would say yes.
5 Weeks away from Reality
Well, very early Sunday morning I will be at an airport. Sitting nervously, probably eating my usual confort food of Mc Donalds. I'm anxious, I want to go to America, and I will probably enjoy myself, but the thought of sitting there knowing that I did not see Scott on friday will drain me. It's not a simple 2 weeks, it's 5, and to me thats a long time.
Fake people of this society
I need to learn how to make good judgement on people. I can't believe that some people can be so false. It drives me insane. I sometimes want to rip out my hair in anger. Do these people see how they make me feel inside? I feel my heart is breaking, it's weird how you can have so many people around you, but feel so lonely.
Chloe xoxo