you know this is a sweet catastrophe... =/
well well well,i have to say,im usually in extremely good spirits this time of year but so far the good holiday cheerfulness hasnt showed up.quite frankly i miss it.things have been difficult lately but im getting through. i left school today because i couldnt take it anymore...theres too much stuck in this dinky little brain of mine and it doesnt know how to come out.it cant come out.i've never cried in school before this was a first,they just feel on my paper with no warning,i love mr.bretherick and vice versa so he gave me pass to the clinic where it took forever to get a hold of any parent and it took alot outof me because i had to lie...kind of.i did feel like crap but nt really physically,actually yes it was physically,but so mental that i made myself sick.now thats sick.now i have to do what i dont really want to do.but inlife you have to do the stuff you dont want to..and sometimes they say you have to suck the puss out of a wound first in order for it to heal.im hoping im doing the right thing and i hope it works. if it doesnt...well i've picked my life up from the shit hole once before ibelieve i could do it again if i had to.i really should have started my math project,in fact i almost did but the stupid phone,curse you,rang and why did i answer it? because im nice like that? perhaps but i did and if i didnt,i would be fine right now AND i would have gotten part of my math project done...double wammy!but now im left with like a double-million ...i got nothing.right anyways so i should go..gotta get s=this crap over with.i've had an anxious feeling in my stomach for a week now,i dont like it.please go away yucky feeling.please go away.i want reroy,where is that fat when you need him? mwhy is him being fat so funny? i want to live like reroy...fat...bug eyed lazy loved(i already am) loud curious goofy care free,hahah leroy :) i think i sound end on that good note sorry for the emo-ness true dat...and the ghetto ness toodles <3