Its a mix
I am in the greatest mood ever right now but im afraid once i turn pandora off and sober up things will change.
Haha ok thats kind of an exaggeration. I'm not drunk. 2 glasses of wine and some music just have my endorphins way up.
I know nobody actually reads livejournal anymore, especially with the advent of the incredibly easy DIY blog. I mean if i have a blog (bestranch.tumblr.com), everyone probably does. But overall livejournal is just cathartic so here goes.
Things are finally changing, there are tangible ends in site and i dont know how the loose ends are all going to tie up. Its finally like i'm in that whirlwind everyone talks about until adult hood and there are parts of me that want to jump right in and parts of me that want to be trapped in limbo forever. On the one hand, i am so over school. Grad school kind of sucks, but not as bad as undergrad, and not as bad as high school, and definitely not as bad as grade school. But overall i just hate being in a room of 10people and not being in charge. These troglodytes in my classes don't recognize my Sheenius. But for real i am just trying to coast by another couple months til i have my final degree and can get a job.
On the one hand i already have a job, i work as a marketing consultant in Farmington Hills but i have mixed feelings as to whether its actually a job or not. On the one hand i wear a suit and tie to work and work 8-5 or 10-8 but on the other hand i was groomed to believe that a job=health insurance and vacation time and sick salary. None of which im getting. The salary part is kind of sick sometimes. It has the potential to be great, and some days i will make a couple hundred depending on how good i can market the products but other days i'm left with pre-rec center wages. I mean it all averages out to above $13 but i wish there were more of those $25/hr days and less of the $7 ones. I also started my own mini business this year which is fun and i friggin love that. I do career consulting for random people who see my ads online and for friends of friends. I go over resumes/write resumes for people who have job interviews coming up and get paid pretty well for it. Plus knowing that what i wrote was the reason someone got a job is pretty rewarding. I wish i could get more customers for that and quit my other job. Haha then just work at the rec for kicks and giggles, ahh the rec just reminds me of easier times.
School and work are what they are.... But on other fronts the longest relationship of my life is going great. I couldn't be happier, i just wish school and work and the economy would improve so i can take that to the next level. Its wierd how all the things you worry about when your little seem to not matter so much when your 22 and yet all the even serious"er" things that you just assume will happen require way much more in life (to make them happen in a mature way) then you would think.
But life is not all roses. I ran out of money! Hoooray! My car finally decided it probably wanted to stop working soon so rather than wait for her to die i decided to sell her and buy a new car. Unfortunately because i have no desire to pay the bank/ford 10k in interest over the next 20years i opted to put all my money down into a new car so i wouldnt have a high/long term payment. This coupled with another 10k due to MSU and 4$ a gallon =no money left. haha i wish i wouldnt have squandered so much money senior year in HS and frosh year in college on luxuries, food, and booze.... But oh well life teaches you lessons.
Ok catharsis activated. bed time now.
also if anyone still uses this and has "the twitter" or linkedin add me on there.
Haha ok thats kind of an exaggeration. I'm not drunk. 2 glasses of wine and some music just have my endorphins way up.
I know nobody actually reads livejournal anymore, especially with the advent of the incredibly easy DIY blog. I mean if i have a blog (bestranch.tumblr.com), everyone probably does. But overall livejournal is just cathartic so here goes.
Things are finally changing, there are tangible ends in site and i dont know how the loose ends are all going to tie up. Its finally like i'm in that whirlwind everyone talks about until adult hood and there are parts of me that want to jump right in and parts of me that want to be trapped in limbo forever. On the one hand, i am so over school. Grad school kind of sucks, but not as bad as undergrad, and not as bad as high school, and definitely not as bad as grade school. But overall i just hate being in a room of 10people and not being in charge. These troglodytes in my classes don't recognize my Sheenius. But for real i am just trying to coast by another couple months til i have my final degree and can get a job.
On the one hand i already have a job, i work as a marketing consultant in Farmington Hills but i have mixed feelings as to whether its actually a job or not. On the one hand i wear a suit and tie to work and work 8-5 or 10-8 but on the other hand i was groomed to believe that a job=health insurance and vacation time and sick salary. None of which im getting. The salary part is kind of sick sometimes. It has the potential to be great, and some days i will make a couple hundred depending on how good i can market the products but other days i'm left with pre-rec center wages. I mean it all averages out to above $13 but i wish there were more of those $25/hr days and less of the $7 ones. I also started my own mini business this year which is fun and i friggin love that. I do career consulting for random people who see my ads online and for friends of friends. I go over resumes/write resumes for people who have job interviews coming up and get paid pretty well for it. Plus knowing that what i wrote was the reason someone got a job is pretty rewarding. I wish i could get more customers for that and quit my other job. Haha then just work at the rec for kicks and giggles, ahh the rec just reminds me of easier times.
School and work are what they are.... But on other fronts the longest relationship of my life is going great. I couldn't be happier, i just wish school and work and the economy would improve so i can take that to the next level. Its wierd how all the things you worry about when your little seem to not matter so much when your 22 and yet all the even serious"er" things that you just assume will happen require way much more in life (to make them happen in a mature way) then you would think.
But life is not all roses. I ran out of money! Hoooray! My car finally decided it probably wanted to stop working soon so rather than wait for her to die i decided to sell her and buy a new car. Unfortunately because i have no desire to pay the bank/ford 10k in interest over the next 20years i opted to put all my money down into a new car so i wouldnt have a high/long term payment. This coupled with another 10k due to MSU and 4$ a gallon =no money left. haha i wish i wouldnt have squandered so much money senior year in HS and frosh year in college on luxuries, food, and booze.... But oh well life teaches you lessons.
Ok catharsis activated. bed time now.
also if anyone still uses this and has "the twitter" or linkedin add me on there.