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Okay so let me finally update. Carl and I are nothing. We call each other and chill every now and then but I sorta ditched him for Matt. Matt started talking to me again for the third time. He apologized for last summer and told me that the reason for him not talking to me was not because he stopped liking me and that he still likes me. We kicked off by acting like nothing had ever stopped. He would hold my hand, kiss me, show me attention and affection and told me he liked me a lot. Boy did my heart melt all over for him again. I was afraid to do anything intimate with him cus I was afraid of him not talking to me again. It almost got to that point one night but I stopped him. I would love to be intimate with him cus he's like me and he can read me so easily and i dig that but as always he just talked to me for a few weeks and he's back w/ his ex gf or gf whatever she is. So now i'm just taking life as is and work life sucks. thats about it. It sucks cus i still dig matt, i dont think i ever got over him but i need to. i'm tired of getting hurt by him over and over. I'm stressed about work, school, and my boy life and of course my financial situation. oh and the fact i'm over weight. the doc says i need to be on some kind of a diet and i need to excersice as well as drink plenty of water. so enough is enough. Good night everyone or good day!