starting year three
brb.
my brother's on his way over. he has an overnight layover in new york on his way to germany.
every now and then i think, how would i have reacted ten years ago if i'd gotten this little glimpse into my future life? and i imagine it would've been pretty impressive, not because i'm doing anything great but because it's so completely random. but then i had zero expectations at 17 as to what state or city i would live in, so maybe any eventuality would've been equally surprising.
fuck my back hurts. it'll get better.
i still miss austin like absolute crazy. it's bigger than austin though; i miss certain things about any non-new york that make it easier to live elsewhere. i miss being able to drive. i miss large grocery stores. i miss having errands be a very slight inconvenience rather than a half-day affair. i miss friendly people. i miss getting away. i miss nature. i miss not seeing people. i miss tubing. i miss clean air. i miss not getting annoyed at my landlord. i miss not having to worry about whether it'll rain, or snow, or if it's hot. i miss lower prices. i miss keeping my wallet in my back pocket. i miss slowing down. i miss not having everything be just a little more complicated.
but man, i still love coming home to this city when i've been away. i keep saying i won't be here forever, and i still can't imagine staying a very long time. but maybe there's another austin within driving distance, you know? maybe i don't have to live in the city to be near it.
or maybe i'll move to denver.
next week i'll be in a little cottage on a tiny island in maine. damien and i will be celebrating our one-year. new york and i will quietly be celebrating our two-year, separated from each other.
this post is #499. next one will be it.
break out the heineken. what what!
my brother's on his way over. he has an overnight layover in new york on his way to germany.
every now and then i think, how would i have reacted ten years ago if i'd gotten this little glimpse into my future life? and i imagine it would've been pretty impressive, not because i'm doing anything great but because it's so completely random. but then i had zero expectations at 17 as to what state or city i would live in, so maybe any eventuality would've been equally surprising.
fuck my back hurts. it'll get better.
i still miss austin like absolute crazy. it's bigger than austin though; i miss certain things about any non-new york that make it easier to live elsewhere. i miss being able to drive. i miss large grocery stores. i miss having errands be a very slight inconvenience rather than a half-day affair. i miss friendly people. i miss getting away. i miss nature. i miss not seeing people. i miss tubing. i miss clean air. i miss not getting annoyed at my landlord. i miss not having to worry about whether it'll rain, or snow, or if it's hot. i miss lower prices. i miss keeping my wallet in my back pocket. i miss slowing down. i miss not having everything be just a little more complicated.
but man, i still love coming home to this city when i've been away. i keep saying i won't be here forever, and i still can't imagine staying a very long time. but maybe there's another austin within driving distance, you know? maybe i don't have to live in the city to be near it.
or maybe i'll move to denver.
next week i'll be in a little cottage on a tiny island in maine. damien and i will be celebrating our one-year. new york and i will quietly be celebrating our two-year, separated from each other.
this post is #499. next one will be it.
break out the heineken. what what!