Change D:
Someone once told me that I am really good at handling a tough situation. They liked how I could think on my feet and keep things moving in a relatively calm manner. As appreciative as I was with this compliment I know that it isn’t always the case.
Like today for example. I come into the office and found out that my rock was terminated. My rock is the person around me where I work (doesn’t matter what job, there is always this one person that is really helpful, kind, caring and overall great person to work with) that is a stable figure that I see daily.
I have been working with this company for years now, and she was always the person I talked to. I knew that it didn’t matter what problem I was having, or if I wanted extra work, she was the person to talk to. She was also a good friend, we would discuss the comings and goings in our lives, a chance to vent to someone that wasn’t involved in things in any way.
So when I find that she is no longer there for me to lean on when I need to, I kinda snapped inside. I am calm on the outside, but you look in and I am freaking out. Sorta like these images:
outside -
whats inside -
Here is a warning for those that have to give me bad news that may shake me up; give me a moment to process it! The bigger the change the longer time I need to take it in, vent, and then come back with a calm and steady mindset. Do NOT sit down my friends replacement next to me to train, and make me listen to this person tell me that she will bring more into this company than my friend Flaunting how great she is compared to this person who I grew close to. It will just make a horrible mess that I will refuse to clean up after!
I am irritated right now, vengeful demons are flying around me out for blood, not a great time for me. I also have a migraine that won’t go away no matter what I do. T-T