Reached for the wisdom
Okay so a few nights ago, I took my last Ambien and decided to take some pre- and post-makeup pictures of myself. Except that when you take Ambien, you are definitely prone to holes in your memory or blackouts. And I definitely have holes in my memory. I'm kind of surprised I didn't black out because I was prescribed 5m and took 10mg =w= (10mg is more common though, so REALLY it's okay...) And then I came to like two hours later. So now I have pictures of myself on my camera that I have absolutely no recollection ever taking. Not bad for... being drugged? Since moralextremist requested to see them, here they are OTL ;;;;;
I think I deleted the pre-makeup photo during my memory gap because I... do not have it on my camera. And because I'm too lazy to go charge my camera to take one of myself without makeup now, I just dug up an old picture of myself when I had short hair and didn't wear makeup =w=
None of these pictures are edited. No idea why my face is so pale or why my hair is so blonde in the post-makeup pictures o__o;
Without makeup:
And with:
So in conclusion... I guess if I'm ever high or drunk, I'm just going to camwhore and blog?! HOW SAD OTL ;;;;; Well, I guess that's better than... getting stars tattooed on your face or something. I don't know.
I do miss Ambien though =w= Gave me good dreams.
So I finally watched La Maison en Petits Cubes, and GOODNESS I CRIED LIKE A LITTLE BITCH .__. Like not even halfway through the movie, I started crying T__T I came out of my room sniffling, and my mother was like, "What's wrong with you now" LOL But I think I cry at anything that has someone elderly reminiscing or people missing someone who has died. I cried during Up, cried a waterfall watching P.S. I Love You, and completely broke down with this manga. Leonard showed me that manga back in the day, but I think that was around the time that we thought my grandmother was dying, so it definitely hit a nerve ;;;;;
And I haven't been out of the house in like three days =w= Usually I would care, but it's so hot outside, my apathy has risen very high. The only things I've been doing lately are playing Devil Survivor (WHICH IS KIND OF DIFFICULT WTF), ordered a shitload (like twenty sets) of stationary, a new dress, and Gazette's new CD :| I shouldn't be doing this when I don't have a job LOL ;;;;;
I think I deleted the pre-makeup photo during my memory gap because I... do not have it on my camera. And because I'm too lazy to go charge my camera to take one of myself without makeup now, I just dug up an old picture of myself when I had short hair and didn't wear makeup =w=
None of these pictures are edited. No idea why my face is so pale or why my hair is so blonde in the post-makeup pictures o__o;
Without makeup:
And with:
So in conclusion... I guess if I'm ever high or drunk, I'm just going to camwhore and blog?! HOW SAD OTL ;;;;; Well, I guess that's better than... getting stars tattooed on your face or something. I don't know.
I do miss Ambien though =w= Gave me good dreams.
So I finally watched La Maison en Petits Cubes, and GOODNESS I CRIED LIKE A LITTLE BITCH .__. Like not even halfway through the movie, I started crying T__T I came out of my room sniffling, and my mother was like, "What's wrong with you now" LOL But I think I cry at anything that has someone elderly reminiscing or people missing someone who has died. I cried during Up, cried a waterfall watching P.S. I Love You, and completely broke down with this manga. Leonard showed me that manga back in the day, but I think that was around the time that we thought my grandmother was dying, so it definitely hit a nerve ;;;;;
And I haven't been out of the house in like three days =w= Usually I would care, but it's so hot outside, my apathy has risen very high. The only things I've been doing lately are playing Devil Survivor (WHICH IS KIND OF DIFFICULT WTF), ordered a shitload (like twenty sets) of stationary, a new dress, and Gazette's new CD :| I shouldn't be doing this when I don't have a job LOL ;;;;;