Re: check my journalcelticdream22April 15 2005, 19:13:19 UTC
here is what is said
Man.. no winning well, yeah my mom preceeded to cry and continue to cry off and on all evening and profusely appologize to me for being an ass.. trying to make me feel like an ass.. but her tears have not effect on me anymore.. and that makes me feel like a further ass.. oh well, i'm not gunna worry about it anymore.. i just need her to go home so we can have a place to be alone and to get back to some semblence of normalicy.. man i feel like such ass and yet i feel like, i'm an adult i don't deserve to be treated like a dumb 4 year old. i'm also a little worried about her cause i confronted her about her not watching any movies anymore or reading and she says she can't pay attention to them anymore, like she's gone ADD. i think the stress of my dad's cancer and how her life has changed thereafter (dad being the uberdick and not being able to use his dick irnoically) is getting to her and causeing her harm physically.. so she is gunna start journaling.. i just worry that if she goes home that no one will notice if she continues like this and it has been found that stress can lead to cancer and all kinds of bad crap so.. AH.. no right decision..
Man.. no winning
well, yeah my mom preceeded to cry and continue to cry off and on all evening and profusely appologize to me for being an ass.. trying to make me feel like an ass.. but her tears have not effect on me anymore.. and that makes me feel like a further ass.. oh well, i'm not gunna worry about it anymore.. i just need her to go home so we can have a place to be alone and to get back to some semblence of normalicy.. man i feel like such ass and yet i feel like, i'm an adult i don't deserve to be treated like a dumb 4 year old. i'm also a little worried about her cause i confronted her about her not watching any movies anymore or reading and she says she can't pay attention to them anymore, like she's gone ADD. i think the stress of my dad's cancer and how her life has changed thereafter (dad being the uberdick and not being able to use his dick irnoically) is getting to her and causeing her harm physically.. so she is gunna start journaling.. i just worry that if she goes home that no one will notice if she continues like this and it has been found that stress can lead to cancer and all kinds of bad crap so.. AH.. no right decision..
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