it's over
I broke up with him. I feel like I had to do it- if we had gone on like we were it would have been a lie to me. I feel like a bitch though. I didn't want to lead him on, and i feel like that's what would have happened if we had stayed like we were. Now there's the regret, and the pain. I really do feel like a bitch though. But I hope we can still stay friends through this, even if deep down he is unhappy. but so am i. After we talked, he said he still wanted to be friends, which i really hope can happen. He asked if I still wanted to go to Elitch's, and so we did. I don't know if that made it worse, or if that was a good decision. We ended it with a hug though, so i have hope. Okay all, just had to get that out. and damian, if by chance you read this, i'm sorry.