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I'm not going to Green Bay for the Czech competition. Really wanted to, but then sang "Trübe Augen" in studio class and Terry told me that there was no way this aria could be technically ready in two weeks (or really, more like one and a half), not to mention that what with my recital and being sick this week, I haven't ever sung through my Czech aria with accompaniment. It's not even close to memorized. So I did something impulsive and canceled my flights. I just can't do it. Honestly, I don't even think I should be doing YAP auditions, since I don't have time to re-work all of my arias. They all suck, except maybe the ones I did on my recital.
I don't like my life right now, but I can't think of how to fix it, except to quit my job, which will happen on Monday. I just want to go home, and I want a hug, preferably both simultaneously. And I don't want to go to New York to do stupid YAP auditions because I'm never going to be ready ever.
I'm not happy. Not at all. I don't feel like singing, I don't feel like moving, I can't even be bothered to blow my nose, even though I kind of need to.
Guess I'd better take a nap if I'm going to have any kind of attempt at a voice lesson later. Do not want to, but I have to. When did this become a chore?
~Anne
I don't like my life right now, but I can't think of how to fix it, except to quit my job, which will happen on Monday. I just want to go home, and I want a hug, preferably both simultaneously. And I don't want to go to New York to do stupid YAP auditions because I'm never going to be ready ever.
I'm not happy. Not at all. I don't feel like singing, I don't feel like moving, I can't even be bothered to blow my nose, even though I kind of need to.
Guess I'd better take a nap if I'm going to have any kind of attempt at a voice lesson later. Do not want to, but I have to. When did this become a chore?
~Anne